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I’m fucking pissedthat I have to see Lexi again for the second night in a row. It’s been three weeks since we last talked, that is until yesterday. The day after I gave it to her not once, but two damn times in the back of my car, she decided she wants nothing to do with me. Can’t say I took it too well. I’ve been spending a lot of extra time at the gym releasing my aggravation.
I get it, things got a little intense between us, but did she have to stop talking to me like none of the past weeks meant shit? Whatever, I’m done with her. Good fucking riddance.
I fix my pink tie in the mirror, the corner of my eye twitching rapidly. Unyielding tension courses through my veins at the thought of facing her again. Does she have to be so damn beautiful? It’s an unfair form of torture.
The only reason I even saw her yesterday was because of Lilah. Damian asked us to take her out to dinner while he’s away, which meant Lexi was coming too. Oh, and to make things even more uncomfortable, Lexi texted me for a ride. No, notthatkind of ride. I mean, who the hell asks someone for a ride to a restaurant after cutting them off? Clearly, Lexi does. As if I’d say no to her.
It was a pretty awkward fifteen minutes while we sat uncomfortably in my car, barely saying two words to each other. All I kept thinking about was how badly I wanted to throw her in my backseat again and fuck some sense into her.
Once at the restaurant, I had to play it off like I’m not angry as hell at her. There was a lot of flirting involved—well I flirted, she was too busy pretending to hate me. That’s how we usually behave when our friends are around, but I don’t know if I can make a repeat performance tonight.
Maybe I need someone to knock some sense intomeinstead because none of this is like me. There’s a reason I keep women away. I don’t want emotional attachments. Love opens the door for my demons to hook their claws into those I love, and I can’t risk that happening to anyone else.
Not that I have those feelings for Lexi or anything. She’s just a friend, a really hot friend, one I miss a lot. That’s all. Hell, she’s not even a friend anymore.
Last week, Gabe and I had reached out to Lilah to check in on her since Damian’s gone. She mentioned that Lexi said she hopes to see me soon. Like an idiot, I thought Lexi changed her mind, so I text her. Guess what happened next? Nope, she didn’t tell me she made a huge mistake by cutting me off. The opposite actually. She told me Lilah’s text was a bullshit lie to get us together. Apparently, Lilah has this fantasy of us riding off into the sunset. She couldn’t be more wrong.
Since Gabe was with me when I read Lexi’s text, I tried to contain my disappointment. That asshole has a good bullshit detector, so he’d suspect something and wouldn’t let it go.
He had already given me a hard time the night Lilah went to the hospital, that’s before Lexi and I had a bit too much fun in my car. He’d noticed how closely I held Lexi when we walked into the hospital together and warned me not to sleep with her. He’s worried I’ll break her heart and make things complicated between all of us, but if anyone’s breaking hearts, it isn’t me.
Taking a deep breath, I pick up the navy suit jacket off the bed and slide it on. Gotta get a hold of myself when I see her tonight at Damian’s party. I’m done giving a shit. She’s just a girl I fucked. I can find ten just as hot as she is.But not who’s as sarcastic or witty or fun or breathtaking.What the fuck happened to me?I fix the collar of my white button down, shaking my head.
I need to get laid again so I can get her out of my damn head, that’ll be the mission for tonight. My dick hasn’t had any interest since her and that needs to stop today.
Last weekend when Gabe and I went out, I had every intention of hooking up with some girl, but even though there were plenty of beautiful women around, none of them were Lexi. When I turned down this one blonde who approached me, Gabe knew something was up. So after a few drinks I told him everything. Big fucking mistake because now he won’t shut up about us keeping our distance, not that it’ll be a problem.
Gabe: Hey man, I’m heading out. Remember what I said about Lexi, stay away from her tonight.
Jax: Yeah, yeah, I know, Dad.
Gabe: I’m serious. Keep that shit in your pants.
Jax: All right…geez. It’s not like she didn’t want it.
Gabe: I don’t give a shit if she begs. Stay. Away.
Jax: Easier said than done, brother. You’ve never seen her beg.
Gabe: Shut up, man. Don’t fuck things up for Damian. What do you think will happen when Lexi wants something more and you leave her hanging? Nothing good. Then Lilah and Damian will have to choose sides. They don’t need any more problems.
Jax: I got it. Mission stay away from sexy Lexi is on. See ya in a bit.
Gabe: You’re an idiot.
Jax: And you’re too uptight. When’s the last time you got your dick wet?
Gabe: Are you keeping track? With the amount of women you’ve fucked, I’d be worried about your dick not mine.
Jax: I’m good bro. No glove, no love.
I get it, he knows I don’t do relationships and doesn’t want me to hurt her. I know he’s right. I remember how heartbroken she looked when she told me about the cocksucker who cheated on her. I’d never want to be the one who made her look that way. Maybe this is for the best.
I stuff my cell phone and keys in my pocket. It’s time to get the hell out of here and face the woman I can’t seem to manage to get out of my mind.
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I down my second Jack and Coke, glaring at Lexi as she dances with some random asshole. Who the fuck invited him? I’ve never seen him before. Must be a friend of someone here.
