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Damian.
Opening the text, my eyes dance along each line.
Damian
I miss you. I shouldn’t have let someone else come in and claim what I should have kept all to myself.
Tears. I feel tears welling in my eyes. I still hate him for leaving, but I crave his affection. The only man who made me feel loved and adored. Sexual and the beautiful kind of love, the one that only happens once in a lifetime.
I debate what to say. How do I tell him I hate him but need him again? That living with a husband who will never love me makes me want to claw my way out of my own flesh to erase the life I was born and sworn into?
Emelia
You don’t get to tell me these things. Not now. And IF you valued your life, you would leave me alone.
As much as I want to lean on him and feel that connection again, I can’t. I shouldn’t.
Should I?
Damian
I value what we had, and I want it. Your father told me what your plan is. I will come back for you, Emelia.
Emelia
You’re working with him? Tell me you’re not.
Damian
Leave that to me. You just hold on, princess. I’m coming for you.
Suddenly, I err on the side of caution.
Me
Nico is the worst man there is, and you have no idea what you stand to lose. You think you and my father can just come in with a mediocre plan and have Nico killed? Well, you can’t, and you’re going to be the only ones in body bags. I have to go. Do yourself a favor and stay far away from me and anything that has to do with the downfall of Nico Valiente.
Damian
You know I was never good at listening. Talk to you soon, my love.
I grip the phone. Flashbacks of him inside me, telling me I was his love, come flooding in, pulling me under like a riptide. Damian knows what he’s doing, and I’m just supposed to sit here and pretend it’s not happening? Why would I ever do that? As much as he hurt me, I still love him, and I don’t want him mixed up in my father’s plan.
Infiltrate Nico’s life, find out all I can, get to his Achilles’ heel, and end him. We’re all at risk, and I don’t think I have it in me for Damian to be included in that risk because of me. The more people brought into this, the more casualties there will be. I grew up with soulless and heartless people, but those are tracks I’ve never followed in, nor do I intend to in the future.
I crawl into bed, one I will most likely be alone in all night.
There’s no need to be jealous, but aren’t we all by nature? Knowing that we don’t love each other is fine. Marrying for love or with the intent to fall in love wasn’t part of this plan, but still, couldn’t he be faithful?This will most likely be a loveless marriage like my parents have, but why can’t he give me the courtesy of monogamy?
Stupid girl, you’ve known for years men in this life see no reason for any of that.
So why do I suddenly want Nico to be that way with me?
“Doesn’t matter anyway. He will most likely be dead in weeks,” I say to the empty room. Until then, I will get in his head, cut the underbelly of the beast, and handle what needs to be done.
The bed dips, causing me to stir from my sleep. When I open my eyes, the room is mostly dark, but the city lights illuminate the surrounding walls. He smells like shower gel. It’s a scent I have to admit is appealing. Staying as still as possible, I wait for him to settle in and fall asleep.
“We have a ball next week. You are being fitted for a dress tomorrow. Be up and ready by nine a.m.”
