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I gaze at the ceiling, and Freddy Mercury's voice fills the room, drowning in silence.
Look into my eyes and you'll see
I'm the only one
You've captured my love Stolen my heart
Changed my life
Every time you make a move
You destroy my mind
And the way you touch
I lose control and shiver deep inside
You take my breath away
I have no idea why I picked this song, but there's something calming about Freddy's voice. Mom is a huge fan, but Dad doesn't really approve, judging him based on his sexual preferences and wild lifestyle, but who cares about who he fucks when his voice is divine?
I turn to my side and silently observe him. Trying to get more comfortable, I slide my hand under my head and shift closer to the edge of the bed for a better view. Samael lies on his side, facing my bed, eyes closed. I can hear his soft breathing, and the scent of my shower gel blends with his skin, creating a unique fragrance.
I wonder if it has something to do with the pH of our skin, and surprisingly, my shower gel seems even more appealing now. His hair is tousled on his forehead, playfully covering his eyes with its wavy ends as Samael never gets it cut too short.
Suddenly, I find myself curious about all sorts of things, silently staring at him as much as I want. Right now, he's asleep, unaware of my gaze. I find myself fixated on his lips, wondering if they've been kissed by others. The thought tightens my stomach, and I feel a pang of sadness at the idea that someone else has had the privilege of touching his lips. Their shape draws your gaze, and it saddens me that he doesn't smile more often.
His lips look perfect when curved into a smile.
His eyes are closed now, which makes me bolder, allowing me to observe him more. His eyes are a dangerous place where, if you're not careful, you can get lost. My attention is stolen once again by his lips, which part slightly. He inhales deeply, then lets out a shaky exhale, almost like a sigh. My heart somersaults, beating so loudly that I fear Samael might hear it, taking over the entire room. I start breathing again, because Samael has a way of taking my breath away, but I don't mind when it's him.
I wonder if he fell asleep deeply? How can he sleep so peacefully in this situation? Maybe Freddy's voice is soothing him to sleep. Or perhaps the argument with his father drained him out. What could he have done so wrong to be hit like this? His lip is slightly swollen where it's split, and the same goes for his eyebrow. I only hope the swelling doesn't worsen, or he'll have to come up with another excuse for tomorrow, pretending he's sick to wear a mask at school.
I will find you
Anywhere you go
Right until the ends of the Earth
I'll get no sleep till I find you to
Tell you when I've found you
I love you...
Freddy's words resonate, and I find myself softly humming along with him.
A faint pink mark peeks out from beneath the collar of his shirt. A scar, maybe? My curiosity tempts me to look closer, but I restrain myself and feel a knot in my stomach. I want to cry. I wish he knew how much he means to me. The song seems to stretch this moment infinitely, making my love for him intensify, and I feel like a wave of emotions is bursting out of my chest and washing over him, whispering the chorus again:
“I love you...”
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The following day, my alarm startles me awake, and I feel an instant rush of anxiety, but as I glance around, there's no trace of Samael or the makeshift bed on the floor. I peer out of the window, sensing the cool morning breeze gently brushing against my face through the cracked windowsill, a sign that Samael must have slipped out through the window and probably made his way down the little flower-adorned staircase on the side. I glance beside me and see the neatly folded sheets and the pillow left next to the wardrobe. I grab my phone and check the time.
It's 7 o'clock. Most likely, he set it for this hour and left the room as if he hadn't been here last night. My stomach tightens as a tiny sliver of doubt creeps into my mind.
What if Sami got curious and snooped through my messages? I wonder, opening the inbox where I still have the messages with Manasseh.
