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“I’m sorry.”
At those two words, I blink and look deep into her eyes, knowing she means it.
“Baby, you have nothing to be sorry for. I just want you to know I get it. But I also get the way your brother feels. What you need to get through is how the rest of us feel and what it would do to us . . . to me if something happened to you.”
“To you?” She furrows her brow. The way her brows lift and draw inward as her forehead creases is cute and definitely tells me that she’s confused by my statement.
“Yeah, Honor, to me,” I confirm.
“Why would it affect you? You don’t even like me. Other than that night, you didn’t know I existed,” she states, pulling back a bit.
“I knew you existed. Shit, anytime you were around the clubhouse, I was aware of you being there. It was all I could do to keep from claiming you as mine. For wanting to demand you be mine.”
“If that’s true, then why’d you—”
I stop her from going any further by placing a finger over her lips because I know exactly what she’s about to ask. “I’ll be honest with you. I was fighting myself and did a lot of stupid ass shit. Shit I can’t take back. I fucked up a lot. I can’t explain away what I did, and I’m not gonna try. What you gotta know is I’m done fighting. I’m done being a stupid fuck. I want you. I want you as mine. And I’ll do what it takes to make that happen.”
Honor stares at me, eyes piercing, and I can all but see the wheels spinning. She’s thinking and doing it hard. When she finally speaks again, she shocks the shit out of me.
“I have a counseling session tomorrow. Would you go with me?”
“Yeah, baby, I’ll go with you,” I agree without hesitation. “Anything you want.”
Honor nods and sighs. “Thank you.”
“Nothing to thank me for,” I murmur and pull her into me. “Now, how about we go join the others so your brother can see you, and later, we’ll talk some more.”
“This whole thing is confusing me,” she states and pulls her bottom lip between her teeth.
“I get it.” Nodding, I climb off the bed, bringing her with me. “But we’ll take it at your pace. All I ask is that while here, I’m in here with you. You can be under the covers and me over them. But I haven’t set eyes on you for three months. Then, learning what I did, I can’t not have my eyes on you. Okay?”
Honor again stares at me with those vibrant eyes of hers and nods. I didn’t expect her to, but she agrees, and I feel myself relax all the more knowing she’s giving this to me.
Wrapping my arms around Honor, I hug her to me and press a kiss to the top of her head. “Thank you.”
“You’re welcome.” Her voice is muffled against my chest.
I press another kiss to her hair and release her. “Now, come on, let’s go see everyone before I decide to just enjoy holding you and keep you to myself.”
CHAPTER13
HONOR
“How are you doing today, Honor?” Dr. Williams asks. Her eyes and voice matching her curiosity at seeing the man sitting next to me.
I fidget with my fingernails in front of me. Unsure if I’d made the right choice last night. But I stuck with it.
This morning, Savage even gave me the chance to back out of him going with me . . . I didn’t. So, here the two of us are sitting across from Dr. Williams.
Last night, he’d opened up to me in a way I never expected he’d do. Not in a million years. He shocked me with what happened in his past, and my heart hurts for what he lost. He didn’t talk much about his fiancée, and it makes me wonder, but it’s not my place to ask. Savage didn’t have to share what he did as it is and him doing it is something to cherish. Which I will. I’ll hold close to it.
We ended up going out to the main room of the clubhouse, where my brother engulfed me in his large frame. He bent enough to put his face in my neck, and I knew he was on the verge of losing it. I could sense it, but it was his deep voice that gave him away as he whispered in my ear.
“Can’t lose you, Honor. I lose you, it’ll gut me. You’re all I have left of them. Of the past. Need you with me, little sister. My daughter needs you, and the one on the way needs you.”
Those words hit me hard, and I realize all the more that what I did would have hurt the people around me. I knew before. I knew when Savage told me about his sister and what it did to him. But hearing my brother . . . yeah, those words rocked me. If I’d succeeded in doing what I wanted, I’d have left Gunner in the same boat as Savage was left.
Blinking, I clear my throat to answer. “I went out yesterday with Delaney and Glacier. Glacier took us to get our hair done and food.”
