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“But I tried to kill myself.” The words are barely loud enough for either of them to hear me.
“Yeah, but you didn’t succeed,” Savage retorts.
“Honor, what you did, you acknowledge and want to overcome. You going home is a step in the right direction. I will give you a list of names of those I suggest you continue seeing. I’ll also give you my number and you can call me anytime you want,” Dr. Williams advises.
“Okay.” I nod.
The rest of the session is the same as it always is. She and I talk. She treats it as if Savage isn’t there. I’m aware of his closeness, but he also keeps quiet, listens, and doesn’t speak up anymore through the remainder of the time we spend in Dr. Williams’s office. At the end, she gives me her number and a list of suggested doctors back home. I’m not surprised she already has one ready and waiting for me.
Leaving the office, Savage keeps me tucked under his arm until we get to his bike. I have not ridden with anyone else but Gunner and Glacier, so I’m not exactly a newbie when it comes to being on a bike, but riding with Savage is completely new and feels more than a little intimate.
It’s somewhat nerve-racking, but still, I enjoy riding with him. Holding him as he speeds down the roads leading to the clubhouse. It’s like he’s one with his bike.
At the clubhouse, Savage helps me off, takes my helmet in one hand, and my hand in the other. Together, we go inside, and Delaney rushes me.
“How did it go?” she asks.
“It went okay,” I answer nervously as I take a breath and ready myself for breaking the news to her. “Dr. Williams thinks I should go home.”
“Oh.” Delaney blinks at me, eyes widening before she glances in Glacier’s direction. Bringing her gaze back to me, she asks. “Are you going to?”
I glance up at Savage, then back to her, and nod. “As much as the idea scares me, and I’m not sure I’m exactly ready, she’s right.”
Since coming here with me, I’ve seen the way Delaney looks at Glacier, and I know my best friend.
Savage releases me and, without a word, moves to where Gunner’s standing near Glacier and two other members of the Poseidon Warriors MC.
“Let’s go to my room,” I suggest, guessing this is something we need to talk about in private.
Delaney nods, and the two of us head to my room. Inside, we both curl up on my bed, sitting crossed-legged in front of each other.
“You don’t want to go back home, do you?” I blurt out the question, and again, Delaney nods.
“I really like it here.” She whispers, “I really like Glacier.”
“I know you do. I can see it in your face.” I smile softly. “If you want to stay, stay. Talk to Glacier, tell him. But Dr. Williams is right that to overcome what happened, I need to face it.”
“But isn’t it too fast?” Delaney asks.
“Maybe.” I shrug. “I know I’m not ready to face it. I don’t think I ever will be, but I’m hiding out here, and she says I need to find a normal for me. I won’t be able to do that unless I’m back home.”
“Are you going to do that with Savage?”
“Honestly, I don’t know. He confuses me, but he opened up to me about some things, and I trust him. He makes me feel safe.”
“Last night you didn’t scream in your sleep,” she murmurs, surprising me.
I think about what she said and after Savage and I came back to bed. I’d gotten under the covers with him over them. When I fell asleep it was in his arms. One of his hands massaging my scalp the other running along my spine. I don’t remember waking up in the middle of the night and this morning I didn’t wake up exhausted. I also slept more than a few hours.
Delaney and I spend time talking, and I know she’s not going to come back with me. It’s heartbreaking, but she deserves to find her happy. If that’s with Glacier, then I’m thrilled she finds it.
I don’t know what will happen to me when I go back with Gunner and Savage, but it’s home and where I honestly belong. The thought scares me, but I’ll see it through.
CHAPTER14
SAVAGE
Watching Honor from across the room, I don’t take my eyes off her as she stands there talking to the other ol’ ladies. We’ve been back a week now and this is the first time they’re seeing her. It took a few more days of us being down at the Poseidon Warriors MC clubhouse before Honor was good to leave. Her and Delaney spent a lot of time together, and I ended up staying in her room with her.Same as the first night me over the covers her under them.
