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He tilts his head and studies me, and I don’t know what he’s thinking. My mind is confused, but my body is sure, sweating at his intensity. Either way, I swear looking at Redix Dean is like gazing at the aurora borealis. Your jaw just drops, and you keep talking.
“I was a cadet at The Citadel and got busted with my boyfriend and humiliated by a football coach.” I drop onto the sofa across from him. “I got kicked out of college; my parents found out and kicked me out too. I walked out of their big house with what I could throw in a duffel bag in five minutes. That was over six years ago, and I don’t regret it.”
“I’m sorry that happened to you.”
“I’m not. They raised me to be an entitled asshole, and all I wound up being was entitled to be myself. I love who I love with no apologies.”
His elbows rest on his knees, and he clasps his hands, his eyes peering up through his dark eyebrows. “Do you love her?”
I mirror him and lean forward, too. “Yes, I do. And so do you.”
“It’s no disrespect, man. I’ll never stop loving her.”
“I hope that’s true.” I’m about to leap off a cliff saying this, “Because she misses you too. She doesn’t say it, but I see it in her eyes.”
The confession. The intimacy. My vulnerable admission that Cade’s not “mine”—he deserves it. With what he survived for her, he’s earned it.
And it silences him. Like he’s opening the gift I gave him and appreciating the magnitude before he asks, “Does she know what happened to you?”
“Yes. She knows everything about me. I’m an open book. I’m a bisexual man with a billionaire’s last name, and all I want is a simple life and true love.” His foot is bouncing. “But Cade isn’t so open. She’s holding back with me, and whatever it is, it’s killing her inside, and I suspect it has to do with you.”
“She’s done everything for me. Too much, actually. And I can’t decide how I feel about it.”
“You did everything for her too. I got a lot of respect for you, man. It only makes me like you and want to see y’all together.”
That shocks him. “You giving her up that easily?” Like it pisses him off too.
“Hell no. She’s not mine to give.”
“No.” He chuckles, and I swear it quakes my heart. “She’s not anyone’s to own. That’s what I love about her. You might as well try trapping water in your fist.”
Why can’t more people do this? Share what they love about someone instead of feeling like they have to keep the person for themselves. There are too many incredible things about Cade to want to keep them from the world.
I need to see his smile again. “You ever get her started on the right way to hang toilet paper?”
His face lights up, and we both say, “Over!”
His big laughter fills the tiny cabin, and it moves through us, and our eyes keep finding each other.
“Thanks,” he says. “I needed that.” He throws himself back on the sofa and gazes up at the skylight. “I’m sorry, man, but I’m about to lose my fucking mind. I don’t care about that damn story. I’ve done so much shit drunk; all I worry about is that I never hurt someone. But that guy got outed, and apparently, he’s a football player, an LA Ram, and it’s gonna fuck up his career. I got money saved. I don’t give a shit about my career. I’m just so damn tired of messing everyone’s life up.”
“I get it with not outing someone.” I kick his foot like we’re buddies on the playground. Why? I don’t know. “But he was the one sucking your cock in a public club, so he’s gotta own that too.”
The moment those words slide off my tongue, the vision fills my mind, and my cock responds.
Redix and his dick and me sucking him off.
Shit. Stop it.
He drags his hand over his face and huffs. “I never thought of it that way.”
I’m thinking of it that way. And I shouldn’t be.
I’m staring at his thighs in a way I shouldn’t be. I’m noticing the buttons on his fly and the generous bulge under them in a way I shouldn’t be. I’m roaming my eyes across his abs in a way I know I can’t. And I wonder about his lips and his tongue when I need to stop.
Not because he’s a man.
It’s because he’s Cade’s.
