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“Okay, fine. This is about…her,” she says, the single word slipping through her lips like a bomb. Because I know exactly whoheris.
My face falls as my mind reels. Did Jade find out about me seeing her tonight? Not that anything inappropriate happened. Unless you consider acting like a weird pseudo–family unit with an ex-Domme and her kid a form of cheating.
“What about her?” I ask carefully.
Jade runs her hands through her hair. It’s normally neatly styled and straight, but tonight, it’s a mess. Her bangs are strewn about her forehead.
“I just keep thinking that she’s who you want. She’s who you need.”
My brows pinch inward even farther. Fuck, I never should have told her that. What the hell was I thinking?
“Jade, stop.”
Instead, in typical Jade fashion, she keeps spiraling. “I keep imagining you two together, and it’s not about the sex, although that bothers me too. All I can think is that I’mnothinglike her. And I never will be. So am I really enough for you?”
Tears brim in her eyes as I softly mutter, “Jesus Christ.”
Then I yank her into my arms and kiss her wet cheeks. Grabbing her face in my hands, I hold her where I can see her, staring into her eyes.
“Stop it. I’m sorry I told you about that. I’m sorry you think I have some ex that you need to live up to. Baby, it was never meant to be anything more than what it was.”
“Do you still have feelings for her?” she mumbles, and my heart breaks.
“I never had feelings for her, Jade. I was just a client,” I lie.
That is supposed to make her feel better, but instead…she almost looks disappointed, her face contorting in anguish as she buries her face in my neck.
I rub her back, hoping that it is enough to convince her.
She wraps her arms around my waist, holding me tight, and it feels nice. It makes me realize something disheartening—I can’t see Eden again. I can’t keep doing this to myself or to Jade. It might have been one innocent encounter, but I know in my heart that I was ready for it to be more, and nothing good could possibly come from that.
“I took a quiz,” Jade says as she pulls away from my embrace.
“Huh?” I ask, brushing her tear-soaked hair out of her face.
“I found it online. It’s like a…kink quiz.”
Uh-oh.
“Why did you take that?” I ask the first of many questions I have.
“Because I just wanted to see what it would say,” she replies without looking me in the eye.
“And?”
“And…it said I’m a switch? Although I don’t know what that even means.”
It’s like having déjà vu. Eden made me take a quiz like that almost a year ago. I remember the results being as confirming as they were surprising. As if they unlocked secrets I was keeping about myself.
Because my first result wassubmissive.
And my second…was switch.
“It means you enjoy being both dominant and—”
“Okay, okay, I get it,” she says, cutting me off.
I stroke my hands over her arms. “You’re overthinking this. It’s okay, Jade.Weare okay. We’re better than okay.”
