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"Jaylen—"
"I have never been in love before and never hoped to be." He was dictating the movement and he had deliberately slowed things down. Long slow strokes, sliding in and out of her wet tightness as he stared into her eyes.
"But I am head over heels in love with you. Ridiculously so. I don't want just a year—" his fingers tightened on hers. "I want one hundred years with you and even then, it would still not be enough. You undo me." He bent to brush his lips against hers, rearing back when she would have deepened it.
"You have become the heart of me—the most important thing in my life." His heart was pounding inside his chest and when she lifted a leg to wrap around his back, he increased the pace a little.
"I don't want to leave you. It's too difficult. I never expected this and I am asking myself how. I have seen you before and never looked at you twice.
But then I happened to step into that pub at that particular time and we did the foolish or what appeared to be the foolish at that time," his voice thickened. "We stepped into that chapel and made vows that never meant anything at the time."
His body was trembling and emotions were clogging his throat. "Then in the space of a week—one damn week—-I felt as if I had known you forever. You make me vulnerable and strong. If that makes any sense. I am yours Anika." He kissed her again, the tenderness sending tremors all over her body.
Her eyes were bright with tears.
"It does not matter if you do not say it. I can—"
"Shut up," she whispered achingly. She wanted to hold him, but he was still gripping her fingers. "Just be quiet." The tears had started, running unchecked down her cheeks. "I was afraid to care," she said hoarsely. "I had been abandoned by people who are supposed to love me.
The only person I allowed into my heart, into my life was Corey. And now you. Oh God, I love you. I told myself that it could not be. I did not know you and besides, you were not my type."
She gave a watery smile. "And you were too pretty. Too everything. But when you left, I could not function. I reached for you at night and it was unbearable without you."
"I don't want to feel this way, it's weird and I am vulnerable. You are capable of hurting me. Jaylen if you leave me, if you go with another woman, I am going to kill you. I will live with the grief of it, but I could not bear the thought of you being with someone else.
I was not planning on you either—" She tugged at her hand. "Let go. I want to hold you. I have to hold you. Please." He did and she wrapped her hands around his neck and buried her face into his throat. "I love you so damn much."
That set him off, both of them as the lovemaking took on a madness that had them both reaching for the climax, the release. It came violently, shattering them in the aftermath.
He called out her name, his voice hoarse as he poured himself into her. She trembled beneath him, the tears still falling as she surrendered.
He held her to him, emotions crashing throughout his body, the shudders still wracking him. When he was able, he eased out of her.
"No."
"Carpet burns," he whispered. Getting on his knees, he lifted her into his arms. Leaving the clothes strewn all over, he strode with her out of the room and upstairs with her clinging to his neck.
He climbed into bed with her still wrapped around him. "You should be hungry."
"Not yet. Let me—" She was still shaking. All of this was new to her, the love pouring into her heart and the man she adored wrapped up against her. It was unexpected and not a little scary. "Just let me be with you for a little bit."
"Of course." He pulled her even closer, her slender curves feeling just right against him. He had contemplated whether or not to tell her of his love.
He knew she had issues that would prevent her from sharing her feelings, they both did, but he had been unable to keep quiet about it. But it had worked out. He had expected to wait for her to realize how she felt, but she had expressed her love for him and nothing else mattered just now.
"Brandy has the hots for you."
"What?" His body jerked at the unexpected topic.
She lifted her head, cheeks wet with tears. "I met with her for lunch and she was telling me the whys and wherefores and don'ts of being your wife. She wanted me to hire someone."
"And you said no." He used the pad of his finger to wipe the tears.
"I did. I told her that I could use her. You have several functions coming up and she wants to make sure I do not embarrass you by wearing the same outfit twice."
"I don't care about—"
"Shh." She placed a long index finger over his sensuous lips, jolting when he nipped at her flesh. "I don't mind. I thought I would, but I want to show you off."
