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“Well as you know Kieran has been and can be quite an asshole, too. Do you need anything before I go in to work?”
“No, I’m fine. I’m just going to shower and sleep. I’m really tired.”
Leaning in, she gave me a hug. “You call me if you need me, ok?”
“I will.”
Later that night, I woke up, and there was a voicemail waiting for me on my phone. I would be lying if I didn’t say I hoped that he’d come to his senses and was going to come crawling back, begging me to be with him again, but it was only the pharmacy, reminding me that I still needed to pick up my birth control prescription.
And that’s when it hit me.
I jumped out of bed and ran into the bathroom, ripping open the drawer that I kept my birth control pills in. The container was empty, and the last time I’d taken a pill was the day before yesterday. “Shit!” Running back into my bedroom, I started Googling the probability of getting pregnant, missing only a day on the pill. Of course, there were conflicting answers. One saying you were still protected but to take two pills, then one that said that there was a possibility. “Why can’t you decide on one answer, Google!” I was starting to panic, but I wouldn’t be able to deal with it until the pharmacy opened tomorrow morning. All I could do now was pray that nothing would come from the mistake I’d made.
In the morning, I got up and got dressed quickly. I needed to get down to that pharmacy and get those pills.
Making my way into the store, I waited in the short line until it was my turn. Once I got my pills I asked the pharmacist about the possibility of pregnancy after missing only one day. He informed me my chances were slim, but still possible. So, he offered me the morning after pill, saying it was anywhere from fifty to one hundred percent effective if taken early enough. As badly as I wanted to purchase it and take it to be sure, I couldn’t. There was just something about doing that to my body that didn’t sit well with me.
Getting a water before I left the store, I swallowed down two of my birth control pills just as I was walking out the door, needing to get them into my system and working immediately.
Entering the house an hour later, after I’d run to the grocery store to pick a few things up, I went to the kitchen to put the items away and make a sandwich. I wasn’t very hungry, but I knew I’d need to eat something. Picking up my sandwich and iced tea, I went into the living room to sit down and watch some tv, hoping to get my mind off of everything. Watching the drama of the Real Housewives unfold did just that.
For a little while at least.
Chapter
Twenty-one
Creed
Ifucked up.
The minute she turned to leave, I wanted to bolt after her and tell her I was wrong. But my feet stood firm, unable to move. The only thing I wasn’t able to control was calling out for her. When she turned to face me with her beautiful tear-filled eyes, I could see the resolve in them. She wouldn’t allow me to see her break.
Not only did I just fuck things up with probably theonlywoman I’ve ever come close to loving, but I fucked up by keeping her too close and allowing her to possibly see behind the man others knew me to be. Now not only was she a weakness, she was an exposure liability. She knew I was more than I seemed and when she’d laid it all out, I couldn’t believe I’d been so stupid as not to see the mindless hints I’d been dropping.
Devin pulled up to the warehouse, yanking me out of my thoughts. As I stepped from the car, I shoved my own issues with Clarice aside, and readied myself to deal with Merric’s bullshit.
