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“Okay.”
“At times, you’ve been in positions where I could have physically hurt you,” continued Rainier. “I mean, actually damage you, not a fun spanking. If I were verbally cruel, putting you down, and controlling you in ways that aren’t right, it would be abuse. As your dominant, it’s critical that I keep you safe, not only physically but mentally as well. If you needed aftercare for something, and I neglected you, that’s also abuse.”
“I get that,” said Felix. “If you do physical things I’m not agreeable with, it’s abuse-”
“Or rape.”
“That too,” said Felix. “If you used words to treat me like shit, that’s true too. I know abusive relationships exist, and sometimes dominants use their power to take advantage of submissives. Some don’t know how to stand up for themselves, or they think it’s normal.”
“And some can’t leave.”
“The thing is, your Mum is verbally abusive, and even though you stand up with your words, she went behind your back,” said Felix. “She tries to control you in every way, and even went so far as to get your guard to assault me. She wrote some Baron to bring his son there to meet you. She does what she wants in her attempts to control you, and she doesn’t care about how you feel. I know when we think of abusive parents, we typically imagine some drunk Father whooping his kid’s ass or either parent is beating their kid, but a Mother or Father can do it verbally, and it can go on even when the child is an adult. You’re twenty-five, she calls you fat, and she does all sorts of horrible stuff. She’s been abusing you for years, and she did it to your sister too. It’s been going on for so long, it’s almost normal to you because even if you argue back or something, you’re used to being treated that way by her.”
Rainier ran his thumb along the glass as he contemplated that. Maybe Felix was right. Mum insulted him repeatedly, and when he didn’t do things she insisted on, she pulled sneaky, horrible shit in her efforts to control him. She had slapped him recently, although he hadn’t dwelled on that. He was taller than Mum, and while he wasn’t that strong right now, in most cases, the idea of her beating him up would be laughable.
She was shorter, and if she had tried several months ago when he weighed more, it would have been easy enough to fend her off and protect himself.
But she didn’t need to come at him with fists or a belt like some parents did to their children.
“When a dominant abuses a submissive, I think it’s because they like the power,” said Felix. “They get off on total control and making the other person feel small and down so they can feel bigger. Even if two people aren’t having any sort of sexual contact, the abuser likes power. In your Mum’s case, I think she has this view of how you should act and be, and because you don’t match up to it, and you are your own person, that pisses her off.”
Rainier set the glass on the bedside table. “I guess you’re right.”
“She also abused your sister. It broke her down until she was stuck in a dangerous pattern of habits. Now she’s done that to you. I’m sure she’s never intended to cause Addy’s death or drive you to that point, but it happened. My Mother’s never called me names or tried to control my life. She even knows what I do for work, and she lets me live my life because it’s my body and my choice what I do with it. I’m not harming myself. Drink your juice.”
Rainier glanced at the glass. He liked the taste of juice, but it was one of those things he didn’t think about having. Mum didn’t seem to care for it, so it wasn’t something they often had in the kitchen, and he wasn’t sure how much weight a person would gain if they had a lot of it.
“It’s not going to make you fat,” said Felix.
“I don’t really want it.”
“Do you want to have energy? I’ve never seen you sleep this much.”
“I don’t sleep well at night. That’s why I’m tired all day.”
A thread stuck out from the blanket, and Felix rolled it between his fingers. “You probably don’t sleep well at night because you’re hungry, and then you’re tired all day, so you sleep in spurts, and then at night, it disrupts your normal schedule, and you’re still hungry. On and on it goes. If you eat, you’ll have more energy.”
It would also add more padding to Rainier’s bones.
“It doesn’t have the pulp in it, so it’s not like you’re eating a bunch of food.”
Rainier took the glass. “Fine.”
“The physician says I should add oils and stuff to your food.”
Rainier lowered the glass after a sip. “I don’t want stuff like that added to my food without my knowledge.”
“Well, fat makes fat-”
“That’s exactly what I don’t want!”
“You have to gain weight, and there isn’t any way around that,” said Felix.
“How about my body, my rules?”
“Having sex doesn’t harm me,” said Felix. “Don’t twist it. I won’t sneak stuff into your food, but you still have to eat something.”
Rainier leaned against the headboard as he drank. He shouldn’t be getting ticked off at Felix who had basically put his life on hold for him. His Kitten was too good for him.
