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“It feels good, but I wish my mom was here so I could show her my sweatshirt.”
“I’m sure you miss her on days like today. Well, if it means anything, I’m so proud of you. You’ve planned this for so long and worked hard to get those grades.”
“Thanks, Eli!” He always made me feel that I could do anything, encouraging me to go for my dreams.
“Yeah, I regret not working as hard as you back then. Sometimes I wish I could do things over, start life over and make different choices.”
He sounded a bit sad. “Like what?”
“Hmm, like see if I could have gone to college or made something of myself.”
Grimacing, I tried to make him understand what an important part of my life he had been over the years. “Well, if anything, you’ve been there for me always. I appreciate you. And, by not going to college, you’re skipping out on a bunch of burdensome loans!”
His pause was palpable, and so long, my hand held my phone out to see if we were still connected. Finally, he quietly said, “So… it sounds like you’re determined to go through with the auction offer, huh?”
Mustering that confidence I felt with Piper earlier, I said, “Yes. I’m going to do it.” Swallowing, I wasn’t quite sure how to tell him who the offer was from, afraid he would become angry knowing it was for porn. Ever since his first letter five years ago, Eli had been so protective of me. He told me he had known my father and promised him he would look out for me. Eli had, in some ways, become like a father figure to me, there when I needed him to be and always giving me helpful advice. I didn’t want to disappoint him, and there was a deep urge to make him proud of me. He had guided me through my teen years and become a great friend. Of course, I had always felt something much deeper than that.
In a serious tone, he asked, “Do you know who the offer was from?”
I couldn’t lie to him, especially when he sounded so concerned. Clenching my jaw, I responded, “Um, the offer was from an adult entertainment production company, Internal Affairs, I think it’s called. They want me to be in a video.”
A heavy sigh blared through the tinny phone speaker. “Essa… Are you sure about that? I can help you out really soon. I have my new job, and I can send you cash when I get paid. You don’t have to do a video. You don’t have to do any of this.”
Part of me wanted Eli to take complete care of me. It’s what I desired most, but that wouldn’t be fair to him. We weren’t together, no matter how desperately I wanted to be. Though the thought of him paying for my bills and tending to me the way no one ever had made my belly warm with foreign heat.
“Eli, you don’t need to support me. I know you said my father asked you to look out for me, but I want to take care of myself. I’m going to accept the offer.” I paused, not knowing how to address my concerns without him hanging up on me. Taking a big breath, I gathered the courage to speak. “I was thinking… It would be better for me if I had someone there during the shoot to watch out for me, someone I trusted.”
My heart thudded forcefully in my chest. I was sure Eli would be disgusted even thinking about me in a sexual way. Maybe I shouldn’t have even said anything like that. Squeezing my eyes closed, I waited for his reply.
Eli cleared his throat, and a drumming sound came through as if he were tapping his fingers. “Essa, is there any way I can talk you out of doing this?”
Shaking my head as if he could see me, I answered, “No. The money is too good; I need it. I want to start my life and earn this degree so I can take care of myself. I’ve told you my virginity doesn’t mean anything to me. I just… I just don’t want to get abused or taken advantage of while I do this, you know?”
“If you’re so determined, maybe it’s best if you did this with someone who will take care of you during the filming. Someone who will watch out for you and make sure you aren’t hurt.”
My shoulders relaxed a little. Did he mean himself? “Yes, that’s exactly what I need. But I don’t have anyone in my life. Unless… Look, I know you said you’re too old for me, and you knew my father, so you’d feel awkward, but—”
“I’ll do it, sunshine. Don’t worry. That Internal Affairs company is run by an old… acquaintance of mine.” With a small, huffing laugh, he joked, “How would you feel if I talked with him and arranged to be your co-star? Would that be too weird? Too gross?”
Was he crazy? My thighs clenched at the thought of being underneath Eli as he made love to me for the first time. Stilling my voice, I spoke as relaxed as I could. “Of course not! I wouldlovefor you to be my first. I know you’d take care of me.” How was it he knew the company’s owner? It was like fate brought us together and we were meant to be.
“Well, then it shouldn’t be a problem. I’m not going to allow someone else to do this with you. No one’s going to hurt you. I’ll make sure you’re safe and have the best first experience you can… with a filming crew around.”
A lump formed in my throat as I nodded at his words. Eli had agreed to take my virginity! I wouldn’t have to have sex with a stranger my first time. He had felt like mine for all these years. Maybe he would begin to see me as his after this. Now, my only worry was being mature enough that he wanted to stay with me after and not just make this a one-time thing.
“We should meet before it happens,” Eli said. “Get comfortable being together. Also, think of a name you’d like to use for the video. You don’t want your children looking it up on the internet in the future.” This day couldn’t get any better. I was going to meet my dream man in person.
“Okay, when?” I asked, almost out of breath.
“How about this weekend? I could take you to dinner, and then we could talk.” Pressing my lips together, I squealed internally. This sounded like a date. Were we dating? Was I dating Eli?
“Th-that sounds great.”
“I’ll call you soon. Congratulations again, college girl.”
The second he hung up, I screamed in joy, the sound stifled by the interior panels of the car. Life was amazing. I couldn’t wait to race home and formally accept my offer with Internal Affairs.
Reaching my bedroom, I flipped open my laptop and carefully read the auction bid one more time. The company placed stipulations on their offer. They wanted me to present myself to their on-site doctor for photographs to prove my virginity, as well as be tested for sexually transmitted diseases. Promotion photos would be taken before, during, and after the video. My co-star would not wear a condom, but the actors were tested regularly.
