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“I want you to do that again.” Greedily, my hungry hands gripped her full bottom as I sat up on my knees, lifting her body to meet my thrusts. Her legs wrapped around my waist as I went crazy, pummeling into her. “Come with me,” I said frantically. “I-I want you to come. Come with me, baby girl.”
Scrunching her face, she screamed in ecstasy while clenching around my cock. I followed her orgasm with my own, emptying everything I had inside of her, holding myself as deep as possible while collapsing on the bed with her in exhaustion.
As we tried to catch our breaths, I leaned up to my elbows so she could get some air. Falling to my back, I rolled her on top of me, her little legs sliding between mine and that flushed face resting on my bare skin, warming the area just above my heart.
She held her head up, and I brushed her golden hair back from her face. Some tendrils clung to her forehead with sweat.
“I love you, sunshine. Don’t ever forget that.”
Blinking rapidly, her eyes finally gave in and closed as her head dropped onto my chest. She fell deeply asleep as I wrapped her in my arms.
The next morning, before she awoke, I gathered all my clothes and sneaked to the bathroom to pack up my stuff there. Stuffing everything into empty grocery bags, I put them in my trunk and drove to my apartment.
It would be agony to stay away, but I needed to. For her. She deserved better. I had been pretending to be someone noble for too long. Dix was right; she was too young and was just starting out in life. She didn’t need to care about some ex-con felon, drug addict, and possible murderer.
Going cold turkey from grave dust in prison was rough. Not ever wanting that experience again, I planned to ease myself from Essa’s life slowly, until she didn’t even notice I was gone, just little bits at a time. It would fucking kill me to see her with some young punk kid, but I could make sure he was worthy from a distance.
I couldn’t be in that house anymore. Too many bad memories, and I was the cause of all of them.
Essa would be all right by herself. Her grades were good, she had friends, her house was taken care of, her finances were square. I needed to let her go. But there was no way I could quit her cold turkey. If I just faded away, eased off and let her grow up without me, maybe she wouldn’t notice, and it wouldn’t hurt as bad…
It was time for an Essa detox.
ChapterTwelve
ESSA
“Eli?”
Patting the cold bed next to me, I raised my head and glanced around. He must have gone to the gym extra early this morning. As I padded to the half bathroom adjoining our little bedroom, my heart paused its beating. His toothbrush was gone. Flipping open the medicine cabinet revealed all his stuff was missing. Hurrying to the closet, I flung it open, and horror struck me. All his things went missing.
Jumping back on my bed, I crawled over it and snatched my phone to send him a text.
Where r u?
Where’s all ur stuff?
Eli
morning at gym
just moved it back to my apartment to get it out of your way
I know uv been cleaning
That was odd. Especially after he had told me he loved me the night before. Feeling reticent, I avoided texting him an ‘I love you.’ Maybe he had changed his mind about me. I thought about calling him to make sure things were okay, but he would be busy lifting.
After my day of classes, I didn’t hear back from Eli. When the evening rolled around and he wasn’t home for dinner, I started to get worried. Sitting in the dark, eating leftovers, I grabbed my phone at least twelve times to call. Part of me was afraid he would think I was too needy. The bigger dread filling me inside was that he regretted telling me he loved me. And that feeling prevented me from wanting to reach out to know if it was true.
A subtle knock came on the door, and I jumped up to see who was there. When I threw it open, Eli stood with his shoulders slumped, eyes cast down to the ground. His black hair was shining from the freezing rain coming in tiny spurts from the sky. Sheepish. That was the look on his face, like he was a guilty puppy.
Biting my lip, I stood back to let him inside. “Hey…”
“Hey, baby.” His lips brushed my forehead so carefully, there was still air between us. Heading into the kitchen, he paused at the door. “Did you already eat? Sorry, I was late.”
The frame underneath his winter coat was held in a tense position. “Do you want me to heat you up some?” Catching my eyes with his coffee-brown ones, he shook his head slowly.
“Nah, I’m not feeling too good. Actually, I think I should go.”
