AllFreeNovel
Share Us
The news settling in for both of us, we just look into each other’s souls, hoping he’s right.
“I hope she has your bright eyes.” Ghost kisses me on my forehead.
“Maybe it’s a boy,” I whisper.
“No matter what our baby is, just know they will be loved.” My heart is exploding with his words. “Just as much I love you, Cassie.” The three words I have been holding onto for what feels like forever, finally I can say them out loud back to him.
“Oh, Noah, I love you too. So much I didn’t know it was possible.”
My tears are running down my cheeks again, but not one of them is a sad one.
Our lips join and seal our words.
Finally parting, I try out the words on my lips. “We’re having a baby…”
“Yes, beautiful, we are having a baby.”
How and where that is going to happen is now the question. I have to trust Ghost to take care of that. My job is just to stay calm for the little one.
Just stay calm…
ChapterThirteen
GHOST
Shit just got real!
That’s a lie, it was already real, but it just got extra crazy. My brain is going in so many directions. How do I hide a pregnant woman who needs care and doctors and all the scans and tests? I pride myself on being calm in any situation, but for once, I feel totally over the edge.
A baby! A tiny little human that I need to keep safe too. I don’t know how to do that. I’ve never even touched a baby, well, not that I can remember anyway. I’m sure I bottle-fed my sisters when I was little, but all those memories are long gone in my brain, wiped when I walked away, to protect me from the pain.
This is so far out of my league that I have avoided it at all costs. I have no one to blame but myself. I never should have slept with her bare. Now I have not only put Cassie in greater danger but also our unborn child.
That’s the part that I can’t get my head around.
Bull’s email jumps back into my head again. “Don’t do anything stupid.”Bit late, buddy, I think I’ve already ticked that off the bucket list for this job. What would he say if he knew?
His voice in my head has the swarm of bees settling.“You’ve got this. You know what to do.”
He would be right. And the one thing that I can’t do is panic.
Taking in a deep breath, it’s like the oxygen is filtering my calmness back into my brain.
Looking down to the top of Cassie’s head where she has dropped her forehead onto my chest, everything slots into place in my head.
Lifting her face up by her chin, she voices the words that are a mirror of what her face is telling me. “I’m petrified,” she says with a small quiver, not much more than a whisper.
“I know, beautiful, I know, but I’ve got this. Trust me to get us through this,” I say, taking her face between my hands. No matter what life throws at me, my world will start and stop with this face.
I pull her toward me. I’ve been waiting all morning for this.
“Just so you know, I don’t care if you are covered in mud or have bathed in beautiful perfume, have morning breath or have just eaten garlic. Nothing, and I mean nothing, will stand in the way of me kissing you. Got it?”
I swallow her answer in my mouth, taking her. I didn’t realize how much I had pent up inside me, but it’s all coming out now, wrestling with her tongue to gain the dominance I need. It pulls out my inner desperation to have complete control of everything, and that includes this moment.
I slide my right hand up into her brown hair that is still wet from her shower and hanging in clumps, my fingers wrapping the strands and straining against her scalp. Her moan sends the fire through me that I know we both need to feel. The kiss doesn’t slow, and her hands are now on my back, having slid them up under my jacket and shirt. I need her skin too, but not just in my hands.
Wrapping my arm around her waist to steady her, I push up onto my feet and turn in one motion, not stopping my devouring of her mouth. Laying her down on the bed, my weight on top of her is what she needs to feel to center herself, and I grind my cock into her so she knows what I want, what I think we both want. My desperation is taking over any softness I should be offering her right now.
