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There was always judgment. Adam needed to have this talk though. He should have really brought it up sooner.
“It’s okay.” Lucas rubbed his thumb over the pulse point of Adam’s wrist, which was surprisingly soothing.
“I don’t like to be touched when I’m little.” He blurted it out before he could change his mind. He’d tried so many times to ignore this line. To allow Daddies to do what they wanted. Each time it ended in disaster.
“You don’t like to be touched at all or sexually?” Lucas asked.
Damn it, Lucas was going to make him say it. “Sexually. I don’t get aroused when I’m in my little headspace.”
“Okay,” Lucas said. “Is it just touching? Is there anything else you don't like?”
Adam squinted at him. There was no harshness to the question. No anger?”
“And I’m guessing by that reaction that when you’ve shared this in the past, you’ve had problems?”
“Daddies want a little they can play with. You know playplaywith.”
Lucas nodded. “That might be true of some Daddies but not for all of us. If you aren’t aroused during little time, it would be horrible to not respect that. Or forcing yourself to allow it just to please someone else.”
Adam looked away. Yeah, and then the Daddies were pissed when he didn’t get hard for them.
“Oh, sweetheart.” He was lifted up then found himself on Lucas’s lap. He flung his arms out to catch himself, but Lucas already had his settled and safe against his wide chest. Damn, Adam had actually been picked up. Like picked up, picked up. His Daddy was so strong. It made Adam wish to be back in that little space he’d been entering. “You should never do anything that you are not comfortable with. I’m sorry that you experienced that. That is a major break in trust.”
“It’s not the Daddies’ fault. I agreed to try.”
“After a little pressure, I think,” Lucas said wisely.
Adam shrugged. He really didn’t want to get into it or have to think about those tough times.
“With me. With Nash. We will respect your boundaries. I swear to you.”
“You don’t think Nash will…think I’m weird or anything?” He got called weird a lot at the club.
“I don’t. I can talk to him for you if you’d like.”
“Yes, please.” Adam would give anything not to have to have this conversation again.
“No problem.” Lucas smiled. “Now what about this? Holding you?”
“I like this,” Adam admitted. “I love to be cuddled and held when I’m little. I even like kisses as long as there are not too-” He didn’t know how to explain it.
“You like sweet kisses that are there for comfort and to show you how we feel but not to arouse?”
“Yeah, that.”
“What else?”
“Not much,” Adam said. “I just don’t get aroused when I’m little. It’s…it’s like I’m in my safe space and that’s grown-up thoughts. To me it’s separate. I know it’s not that way for most boys. Sam and Caden love to be little with their Daddies like that. When I’m little, I’m little.”
“So nothing arousing or sexual,” Lucas repeated. “Sweetheart, I really don’t think we will have any problems with that. You’re not only our baby but you’re also our boyfriend. There will be plenty of time for intimacy when you aren’t little.”
“I hope so. I love sex, just not—”
“I understand.”
Lucas had said all the right things. Adam hoped that his Daddy was telling the truth, and this wouldn’t be an issue. Only time would tell though. Adam didn’t know how to handle it but to see.
“I have a question for you now.”
