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“What am I thinking?” I challenge, my pulse quickening.
He searches my eyes for a long moment.
“That you’re in love with me.” He says this so simply that I can’t help but laugh. “Don’t laugh,” he chides me. “You know it’s true. I’m not saying you do love me, but rather you think you do.”
“You have quite the way of getting to the point,” I manage to say. I’m grateful he didn’t say what I thought he was going to, but even so, I’m not sure how to deal with this. I don’t know what my feelings for Crane are. One minute I hate him, the next I envy him, the next I feel safe with him, and in the next I love him. On top of it all I deeply desire him in a way that makes me mad, both angry and driven to insanity. But none of it is a conscious choice. I succumb to him like I succumb to breathing oxygen.
“Don’t feel pressured to refute me,” he says. “Let me go on dreaming.”
But I heard what he said last night to Kat. I heard what he said to me.
I love him. I love both of you, want both of you, need both of you. I think I’ll die otherwise.
Crane melted my heart last night whether I wanted him to or not.
As I said, whatever my feelings for him are, I don’t have a choice in the matter.
“Were you jealous of me with Kat last night?” he then asks, the look in his eyes growing dark with lust.
“Yes,” I say, and the image of his cock inside her makes my stomach twist in knots. “Were you jealous of me with her?”
“Yes,” he answers dourly. “She belongs to me. The possession I feel for her isn’t something to be trifled with. It’s consuming.”
He took the words right out of my mouth.
“So what does that mean? What do we do about it?”
“We don’t do anything about it. It’s jealousy. It’s only a feeling, and one that means and feels like a lot of different things. It doesn’t have to be bad. We just feel it, and we deal with it, and in this situation I think we need to accept that as long as we are sharing her, it’s going to be there. Like another person in the room with us.”
“Another person,” I mutter. “I can barely deal with three.”
He pauses, a small smile curling his lips. “If it helps, I think Kat was jealous of us.”
“How so?” It does actually help a little.
“How could she not be?” Crane explains. “She hasn’t been in my bed for the past week but you have. You’re with me every night, and she’s not. I’m sure all she wants is to join us.”
“We must correct this injustice,” I say, unable to keep from smiling.
Crane notices, puts his hand on my cheek, gazing at me with mournful eyes.
“Are you sure you’re not in love with me, pretty boy?”
But before I can say anything he kisses me so deeply that I feel it in my soul.
And my soul starts to burn.
Despite Crane wanting to sleep for weeks, after we made each other come and took a bath together, we went on with our day. He used just a bit of his magic to speed up the healing process on our palms, not wanting to attract any attention with our identical scars, and then we were off to our morning classes.
My first class was history, so I wouldn’t see Crane or Kat until the afternoon. I couldn’t even try to pay attention. While the teacher—I can never remember her name—was droning on and on about the Salem Witch Trials, all I could think about was last night. The sight of Kat’s voluptuous, soft body covered in our blood, how deeply she took me down her throat, how ruthlessly Crane pounded into her. I wanted that again. I didn’t care about the ritual part, I just wanted that debased fucking in the forest. I wanted to feel free.
And truth be told, I wanted to come inside Kat. I wanted to pin her down, impale her with my cock and spread my seed deep inside her cunt. I know it’s forbidden because of what the Sisters have planned for us, I know that’s why I need to stay away from her in that way, why I was only allowed to come inside her mouth, and any deviance from this might lead to tragic consequences.
But I can’t help what I want. It’s what I’ve always wanted.
I love Kat, even more now than I did yesterday.
I want to marry her despite everything.
I want to get her pregnant, no matter what Crane says.
I want her soul and her love just as much as he does.
It isn’t fair that I don’t get to have that just because the Sisters and her mother have arranged it from day one. Why do I have to suffer because of it?
