Too late for that. Aunt Vittoria was going to have to find another political pawn.
I shut off the water and grabbed my bathrobe off the hook. As soon as I climbed into bed, I texted my maid Pinna. Talking to Aunt Vittoria about birth control would be like opening a whole can of worms I wasn’t ready for.
Me: hey. Need a favor. Can’t tell the dragon lady.
Pinna: of course. Anything
Me: can you stop by tomorrow and bring me one of those Plan B pills?
Pinna: oooohhhh
Me: you promised.
The three dots lingered for a long time. I’d bet her head was spinning right about now, probably as much as mine was. Pinna knew I was still a virgin. I dropped my face in my hands. I was out of tears, but now I had to find a way to contain the disaster I had created.
Pinna: ok. I’ll stop by in the morning. Early.
Me: thank you.
I tossed the phone on the bedspread. No doubt right now Pinna was telling everything she knew to Aunt Vittoria. I couldn’t blame her. My aunt could be so terrifying when she wanted to be. Pinna didn’t stand a chance. At least this way, Aunt Vittoria would have an entire night to calm down and realize that I wasn’t her pawn.
Now that the worst part was over, I closed my eyes and curled under the covers. And just because I was a glutton for punishment, I thought of Luca and how incredibly hot he looked without a shirt. Why was he half naked when he opened the door?
I sat up, and the usual green monster in my belly reared its ugly head. Was he with another woman upstairs?
Blinking fast to try and focus, I reached for my phone and immediately spotted Luca’s text.
Professor Gallo: how are you feeling?
Me: bite me
Professor Gallo: gladly
Me: what?
Me: were you fucking another woman before I showed up?
Professor Gallo: why would you think that?
Me: don’t answer a question with a question. You were half-naked.
Professor Gallo: oh that.
Me: well?
Professor Gallo: no, Ms. Salvatore. I was alone when you showed up. I had just spilled wine on my shirt.
Me: oh
Jesus, this thing with Luca couldn’t go on. This constant state of hot and cold was giving me whiplash. Why was he even texting me and asking how I felt? It wasn’t like he cared.
Me: I’m a little sore. A lot actually. You’re huge.
Professor Gallo: I didn’t realize.
Oh, so he had noticed he was my first. I waited for him to write more, but the dots faded away and no new message came in. That was it? Was that his apology? I hadn’t expected a love confession, but at least I wanted him to tell me he liked it. Because I loved it. I didn’t think it would be possible for sex to feel like that.
Now what? How was I supposed to move on with my life knowing there was this whole other life I could have. Sure, I couldn’t have Luca forever. But if a little while was all we had, I was willing to give it a shot. Was he?