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Kandace laughs. The laugh I haven’t heard since our nerf war date. The same laugh that ignited a small flame in my chest. I could hear that laugh every day and be happy no matter how my life was going.
Her smile and her laugh shine a light on my worst days. They get me out of the black hole of grief I stumble in when I don’t see her for too long. That grief has me holding onto the ones I love, grabbing them tight and never letting go. I don’t think I could ever go through losing someone else.
“I liked them. I thought they were very nice.” She admits as if she’s guilty of something.
Shit.That confirms it. I am going to bring her pink carnations any chance I get.
I’m only half listening to the rest of their conversation. Watching Kandace interact with my mom like she was sitting right here with us has my heart jumping out of my chest and reaching out for this beautiful queen next to me.
Forget every doubt I had before. No matter what, Kandace will be my girl. No matter how hard she tries to pretend she’s not. She’s my queen and I am her king.
“Mom, we have to go,” I interrupt them.
The second I hang up, I wrap my hand around the back of Kandace’s neck and pull her closer.
“Luca, I–” I don’t give her a chance to finish.
My lips are on hers and my tongue is exploring her mouth, searching for her heart. Her hands stay on my chest while mine roam over every inch of her body.
I’ll never stop fighting for this. For her.
I felt it at the restaurant, the small moment when she grabbed my forearm and our eyes locked. I felt it in the way she spoke to my mom. I feel it now in her kiss. It’s sincere. It’s real. She wants me, but she’s fighting it. Still holding back.
I’ll find out and we’ll figure it out together, because it’s worth it.
She’s worth every game not played. Every shot not blocked and every score not made. I’d give up everything if I had to.
Chapter 23
Kandace
Can I trust Luca?
He’s never physically hurt me. It scared me when he drove down a trail that led to a clearing overlooking the valley, but I wasn’t frightened for my life or if he’d hurt me. I was more afraid of his silence and his thoughtfulness than if he’d actually physically harm me.
But can I trust him with my heart?
There isn’t casual sex with Luca. As much as that’s all I want it to be, it wouldn’t be casual. If I can’t have it that way, then there has to be none at all.
He’s consumed me. He’s taken over my entire life and weaseled his way in. I’ve fought and fought, but I can’t deny how much my body craves him or how he makes me feel with a single look.
I still hate him. Or strongly dislike now?
My head is confused, and it doesn’t help that Luca’s tongue is down my throat, making me feel disoriented and hot. Scalding. Burning flames traveling through my veins, kind of hot.
He didn’t give me a chance to say anything. One second, I was talking to his mom.His mom!Why did he tell his mom about me? We never even went on a date.
The next second, Luca’s hand is behind my neck, pulling me towards him, his lips latching onto mine.
To be fair, I could’ve stopped him, or I can stop this. But I’m not. My body's saying yes. My heart is saying no. And my head is trying to figure out what the fuck is happening.
I don’t even know when he got my skirt up. His fingers find their way in and glide along my slit, but that sensation pulls me back and my head finally catches up.
Nails digging into his chest, I jump back as far as I can go and holding him at arm's length.
I can’t do this.
Luca is making me feel things that aren’t real. This can’t be more than casual.
