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I should revolt, should demand I be taken care of, but I don’t. I just bite my tongue as Ford crowds me in from behind, his hand sliding across my bare stomach. Their touch makes my entire body clench with need.
But neither of them makes a move, and I don’t want to be rejected, so I let it go.
I can try again tomorrow.
* * *
“So, how long has it been since you’ve gotten some,” Tatum asks, leaning forward and poking at my flushed cheeks with his bright purple nails.
I’m embarrassed to admit it, but it’s been almost four days of nada. Zip. Motherfucking zilch. Cash and Ford have done nothing but kiss me, bringing me close to begging for release before cutting me off.
I refuse to be the one to say anything, to show them how desperate I am for it just to be rejected. But god, it’s driving me crazy.
I should communicate like an adult, but I’m not thinking clearly.
“You do look a bit crazed,” Tatum says as he pulls out a bag of candy and shovels some into his mouth. “I mean, you have the sex drive of a hyena.”
“Do they have notoriously high sex drives?” I ask, and Tatum shrugs.
“No clue, but it sounded funny.”
I roll my eyes but continue to sit with my thoughts. Are they not interested in me anymore? Do they not want me? Was my dad showing up the reason they’re behaving this way? Did it scare them? Are they second-guessing everything we’ve done? Will they end this?
Oh god, the thought of it makes my stomach churn. I’ve risked so much. Made so many decisions based on the two of them. They can’t give me up now. Right? I can’t be so disposable.
My mom makes her appearance in my head, but I shake her off, trying to keep myself centered.
She won’t care what I do, she’s not even around. She loved me no matter what. I know that.
But I’m slowly losing my mind. I hate behaving. I gave in and started being bad, and I love it now. There’s no going back for me. I’m all in.
“If I were you,” Tatum interrupts my spiraling thoughts. “I’d get some toys and show them what they’re missing. Taunt them a little bit. Makethembeg for once.”
We say goodbye, and I ponder his suggestion as I make my way back to my place. Idohave some good toys tucked away in my closet, for emergencies only.
Seems this is a full-blown crisis.
I could make national news at this point.
Call in the National Guard. I’m going in.
I’m shoving dildos into my bag when my dad appears in my doorway, making me nearly scream. God, what if he saw what I was packing? I’d never survive the embarrassment.
“Sheesh, Dad,” I say, clutching my chest. “Why are you lurking?”
He grins and looks bashful. “Just saw your car and wanted to come say hello. You’ve been gone a lot.”
I feel terrible for that, and yet I still kick that bag of toys farther into the closet. Those damn things are coming with me whether I want them to or not. I’m committed to it now. I have a plan of action.
“Yeah, I’ve been super busy.”
“I was thinking we could grab breakfast tomorrow at that café we like,” he suggests, and I nod.
“Of course. Just let me know when and I’ll be there.”
He beams and then taps the door jam. “Great, is it…is it cool if Avery joins us?”
I don’t even hesitate. “Of course, Dad. I really like him.”
