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Remi dug her fingers in, scraping his flesh and drawing blood. Her body felt as if it was burning up, and she could not get enough of him.
The anger and pain dissolved, leaving her with the aching notion of how much she loved him. She came violently, her body arching upwards. He came right then, body bucking and shuddering on top of hers. Dragging his mouth from hers, he buried his face in the warmth of her neck, his heart thundering inside his chest.
He did not move off her, even though he might be crushing her. He waited a few minutes as he tried to recover his composure. His body was still shaking, his thoughts chaotic.
At least she was not pushing him away, her arms were still wrapped around his neck. He was afraid that if he moved, she would tell him that she wanted out. If he remained wrapped around her, she did not have a choice but to stay put.
“It’s fine.” As if she knew what he was thinking, she whispered the words against his bowed head.
“What?” He lifted his head to gaze at her. His heart went into overdrive as he stared at the swollen lips and the softened expression.
“I am not angry anymore. I was jealous of a dead woman and it’s not something I should be concentrating on. She is dead. She was beaten to death by a man she was involved with and all I could think about, concentrate on, was the fact that for one minute she was carrying a part of you inside her.
I felt betrayed- No.” She shook her head when he opened his mouth. “Just let me finish, okay? While I still can.
The first thought that popped into my head was that you had lied to me by omission and that I was not the first woman you had knocked up. I didn’t think about that poor woman and what she went through or what her family must be going through.
I hated the fact that she had a part of you inside her, that I no longer held that distinction and I was pissed.” She took a breath. “But that is not the issue here and I have to take myself out of it.
You made a promise to her on her deathbed and you need to keep it. I did promise that we would talk things through. I am carrying your baby inside me and in less than two weeks we’ll be married and I love you dammit. I am not going to leave you.” Lifting a hand, she cupped his jaw. “I love you and that is not going to change.”
He blinked at her. “I did not want to tell you. If I could have got away with it, I would have kept it from you. I did not want to hurt you. This morning, I was so happy that you finally said yes. But as soon as I got to the office, I was met by the news about her.”
He cupped her face, hands trembling. “I did not want to spoil what we had going on. I left the hospital and told Jake to drive around for a bit. I came home and stood there in the living room, wondering how to tell you.”
“I knew something was wrong,” she told him softly. “There was something off and I realized it. That’s why I came to join you in the shower. But I thought it was just work, that those deals you had going on, that something had turned hinky. I never dreamed- “
“I am sorry,” he whispered.
“For what?” she asked a little impatiently. “For having a damn past? I love you and what you did before should not be a factor.”
“I still want you to accompany me.”
She shook her head. “You are not thinking and if you were, you would know that it’s not a good idea for me to travel that distance.”
“I don’t want to leave you- “
“Shh.” She placed a finger over his lips. “I will be fine. Mrs. Mason has warmed to me and is determined to take care of me. I also have David and the rest of the girls. I will be fine. You need to go darling and I promise that I will not do anything crazy.”
“Remi.” He kissed her forehead gently. “I came home expecting to be fighting, to be arguing, fearing that this was going to throw a wrench into our plans for the wedding. That you were going to change your mind.”
“I won’t. I can’t. I am hooked.”
“Thank God,” he said with feeling, closing his eyes briefly. “I should-“
“Stay,” she whispered. “I need more.”
“So, do I.”
*****
“I will ask Rachel to check on you as well.”
“You worry too much,” she chided.
“It’s my job. It’s nice out.”
“I am not planning on going anywhere much except lunch with the girls and Cheryl. I have a fitting for my dress tomorrow.” She narrowed her eyes at him. “it’s good you won’t be here, you cannot see it.”
