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“I didn’t know that,” I said sincerely. “I just play the game the best I can. If I’m blessed with stats like that, then it’s thanks to the teammates I’ve been lucky to play with.”
“So, you seem like you have your life together. How did you end up in the middle of a scandal like this?”
“I honestly don’t know. After the game, someone suggested that we go out. One thing led to another and I guess one of my teammates recorded it.”
“And posted it online.”
“And posted it. But, I’d like to point out that, we were just blowing off steam. It wasn’t like I was cheating on anyone. There’s no one. I’m single. We were just having a little fun.”
“So, this is a case of boys being boys?” She suggested to my surprise.
“I guess. Though, I can now see how I was showing poor judgment. I deeply regret the embarrassment I brought to the East Tennessee Football program and the school’s community. If I regain the trust of everyone around me, I think I could make everyone proud,” I said speaking out of my ass.
“I’m sure you will. As for East Tennessee’s perfect record so far this season?”
“We’re gonna do everything we can to maintain it and bring another national championship to East Tennessee.”
“There you have it. The sincere words of a present and future star in Tennessee football.”
“And, we’re clear,” the producer said returning to the earpiece. “Great interview. Even I believed you. Good luck for the rest of the season.”
“Thank you,” I told him before handing the earpiece back to the cameraman whose inner asshole had softened.
“Roman, that was fantastic! I didn’t know you had it in you,” Coach said with a smile. “You are gonna go far in this world. Very far!”
I smiled and subtly looked around for Kendall. He looked as devastated as I thought he would be. Looking like he would burst into tears, he rushed out of the room.
I didn’t go after him. Why not? I don’t know.
With the coach releasing me, he told me to stay out of trouble at least until the interview airs. He said it in a way that made it sound like it would be hard for me. I didn’t know what to think about that. Luckily, there were other things on my mind. Mostly it was Kendall and what I had let slip through my fingers.
The closer I got to my room, the more rage I felt towards myself. I was such an incredible fuckup. Everything about my life was a shit show, probably because I was the mistake who never should have been born.
By the time I had made it back to my place, I was ready to explode. I tried to think of something that would calm me, but the one person who centered me was the reason I was so furious. Unable to hold it in anymore, I grabbed my heavy wooden bed frame and flipped it. It slammed into the wall with a crash.
Nothing I owned was safe after that. Anything I had that could break, I smashed against the wall. Anything that could tear, I tore apart. The place was a mess with torn paper and shattered glass when I ran out of stuff. That was when I looked across the room and marched towards Titus’s side.
It was at that moment that the door unlocked and Titus stepped in. He scanned the room in shock. Seeing how out of control I was, he rushed to me.
Unsure what he would do, I reacted. With a flashback to every fight I had been in, I turned my body and caught him in the jaw. He hit the ground with one blow.
I froze catching myself. What had I done? He wasn’t moving.
“Titus?” I said scrambling to his side. “Are you okay?”
His body lay lifeless. Had I knocked him out? Had I finally killed somebody? Was this the moment I had always been afraid would happen? It had to be.
With him still limp, I rushed to my feet, collected my keys, and escaped. I was trying not to run. It would make things too obvious. But I needed to get away. I needed to get to my truck and drive until I couldn’t go any further.
Maybe I would drive to the lake I ran to as a kid and this time cross it. Maybe I would drive into it and bring my miserable life to an end.
I wasn’t meant to be here. I wasn’t meant to be alive. And the only question now was if I would have the courage to put an end to the mistake my mother had made so long ago.
Chapter 11
Kendall
I ran out of the media room leaving Nero behind. I couldn’t believe he had said that. Had I meant nothing to him? I thought I had. Didn’t he say he loved me?
