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“Get used to it. I won’t allow you or anyone else to insult him.”
“Wow. Okay. Bring down the protectiveness a notch. It’s revolting.”
“No. Deal with it.” My good mood slowly withers as I clear my throat. “Can I use your phone to call him?”
“There’s no need. He was with me and is currently waiting outside your room like a moping wanker.” He stands up. “I’ll fetch him for you.”
Fire spreads through my chest, and for some reason, it’s hard to swallow, but I nod anyway.
Even if that nagging feeling remains.
What if he doesn’t want to see me? What if Lan forces him?
My brother stops at the door. “One more thing.”
“Yeah?”
“Please tell me you top the motherfucker.”
I let my lips curve into a smile as I shake my head. Lan’s face falls and he looks like he’s on the verge of a heart attack.
“Bloody fucking hell!” He throws the door open and then shouts, “Nikolai, you fucking wank, come here.”
There’s a bit of a commotion and I’m scared they’re fighting. I stand up from the bed and grab the IV drip, but before I can move, a presence that’s larger than life is shoved into my room.
Lan winks at me before he closes the door, trapping me with Nikolai.
My hand slowly falls to my side as I study him. He’s in different jeans and T-shirt from the ones he wore last night, his hair is tied into a ponytail, and his face is…fuck.
Anguish and displeasure war into a tight knot. His lips are pursed, and his eyes are dark and enraged.
But at least they’re not empty. I can deal with rage.
One problem.
He’s not looking at me.
Not once has he looked at me since he walked in. His gaze is fixed on the floor and both hands are shoved in his pockets.
“Nikolai…?”
A harsh breath rolls out of his expanded chest, his jaw clenching and his biceps tightening, causing the tattoos to ripple.
“Are you going to look at me anytime soon or do you prefer to stay outside—”
He lifts his head and the words are cut off in my throat. The fear and rage that lingers in his eyes leave me speechless, completely taken in by him.
“Howcouldyou?” He strides toward me, his voice vibrating with fear instead of anger. “How could you try to leave me? Don’t you know I can’t live without you anymore?”
The moment he’s within reach, I take his hand in mine. The feel of his skin is like a shot of dopamine right through my veins.
“I’m sorry. I thought… I thought you’d find me weak and revolting. The idea of you seeing me differently haunts me, Nikolai. I don’t want to lose you.”
“But you’re okay with me losingyou? I’m a shell without you, Bran.” He drags my hand to him and slams it against his chest. “This thing only beats for you andbecauseof you. I used to live an aimless life where adrenaline was my god, but you came along and tamed my demons. You balance me. You complete me. You’re fuckinginme. So seeing you bleeding out on the floor was no different than watching myself die. No, it was worse. I’ve never felt so scared for my life, but you…you’re my everything. How could you do that to me? To us?”
“I’m so sorry. The last thing I want is to hurt you.”
“Don’t apologize. Tell me you won’t do it again. Promise me.”
