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“A safe word?”
"If you need me to stop at any time, you only have use it."
I bite the inside of my cheek, “I don’t think I’d ever want you to stop whatever it is you're doing.”
His eyes flash, then he cups my cheek. “Much as I am tempted to agree, it would be in your interest to choose one.”
I take in the intensity on his features then nod. And don’t have to think twice when I say, “Fleabag.”
“Your safe word is Fleabag?”
“The series with Andrew Scott as the Hot Priest.”
“The Hot Priest?” He frowns.
I peek at him from under my eyelashes. “’Course, you’re hotter, Eddie.”
I must say the right thing because an expression of satisfaction crosses his face. "What, am I going to do with you?" His throat moves as he swallows.
"Anything you want."
"Anything?"
My heart beats so loudly, it drowns out all other thoughts. "Anything."
I expect him to pull off my torn clothes, then throw me to the ground and ravish me. Instead, he peels my camisole down my arms, then lowers my shorts until both pieces are in a puddle around my ankles.
He grips my hips, lifts me up, kicks the fallen clothes aside, then sets me down. He does it in one uninterrupted move. His biceps bulge, his shoulders turn into rocks of delightful muscle, and his chest swells, but he doesn’t breathe heavily. Or show any sign of strain on his face. Of course, he’s strong. I’ve seen the cut of his physique, felt it’s impossible wall-like planes dig into my softer curves, but just how powerful comes home to me with this maneuver.
After the years of laughs and jeers in school, and the averted glances of my half-sisters, the graffiti on my locker calling me 'fat face,' the fact that he can handle me like I weigh nothing…is the most erotic thing I’ve ever encountered. And now, he’s going to touch me all over. He’s going to fondle my tits, and squeeze my hips, and pinch my clit, and oh god, I want him to. I want him to bite my flesh, mark my thighs, rub the throbbing space between my legs and bring me to the edge. I draw in a breath, and when his scent sinks into my blood and his heat cocoons me like the soothing steam of a sauna, I sway toward him. He steadies me with a hand on my shoulder, then steps back. He reaches for his phone and swipes the screen. The haunting strains of something classical, something deep and complex and so soul stirring, it pours liquid heat through my veins, fills the space. Another sweep and the lights dim. He places his phone down on the island and holds out his hand. "Dance with me."
As if in a dream, I place my palm in his, the other on his shoulder. He grips my hip with his big hand, the fingers so long and thick, they seem to cover most of my back. And no, my waist isn’t the slimmest, and my hips are wide. I’ve tried to hide my figure—or lack of one—my entire life. But he seems to revel in my softness. He guides me across to the space in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows.
Outside, the dark expanse of the water is broken by the lights of ships in the distance, snowflakes float down in a dance almost as sensuous as the one he leads me through. The music flows over me. He holds me close as we move around the room. His hold on me is sure, his every step confident, yet so light I feel like I’m floating. He holds my gaze, and his own is intense, but there’s also a softness around the eyes. Something that indicates he’s at peace. Like he’s finally coming into himself. It’s why he brought me here. He might not have said it aloud—or even admitted it to himself—but having me here is like giving me an insight into his personality without speaking. It’s a very Edward move. Dominant and sure and also, so passionate. So emotional. Like this song. The notes rise in crescendo, and tears prick the backs of my eyes.
When the song fades away, he slows to a stop but doesn’t release me. "You’re crying." He bends and licks the tear drops that skates down my cheek. "Why are you crying?"
48
Mira
"It’s… I’m not crying. Not really. It was the music. It was haunting and sad and hopeful, all at the same time."
"The dance before when someone you love becomes a memory," he murmurs.
I widen my gaze, but before I can say anything, he places a finger on my lips. "That was my past. Mired in darkness, filled with a yearning I thought was for my past, when it was me anticipating my future. Anticipating a curvy woman who would sweep into my life and turn my plans upside down. A future which is here. A future I want to see with you. A future which is you."
"Eddie." I move in closer.
He releases my hand only to wrap his arms about my waist. "Forgive me for everything I did to get you here."
"There’s nothing to forgive."
He smiles a little. There’s something sad in the turn of his lips, something that squeezes my heart. "What is it? Please, tell me."
He hesitates, when the next song comes over the speakers. The familiar notes fill the space, and "Ceilings" by Lizzy McAlpine, starts to play. I was not expecting that. Especially after that classical music piece that almost torn my heart out. Not that "Ceilings" isn’t sad, but there's something about that first piece that was timeless. Something that forced my emotions to the surface. Something that made me feel I’d been afforded another peek into his soul.
"That’s an eclectic play list," I murmur.
