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“I have my ways of finding.” Tucking my hands into my pocket, I try to be as calm and composed as possible.
She folds her arms across her chest and narrows her eyes on me, “You mean to say you have your ways of stalking me. God forbid, Ranveer, if that Ajay is still following me, I am so going to kill you.”
I shrug my shoulders. “You gave me no choice. I tried reaching out to you but you refused to speak to me. You know I worry about your safety. What do you expect me to do?”
“For starters, I expect you to respect and give me the space which I asked for.” She raises her chin and gives me an accusing look.
“I did give you the space,” I point out.
She studies my face with mocking eyes, while her mouth twists into a humourless smile. “Not enough space if you are here standing in front of me and having a bodyguard following me.”
Not taking my eyes off her, I don’t miss the insecurity she is hiding behind her smile. Nonetheless, I am proficient enough to notice the fear on her face—the fear of being hurt. She has still not let her guard down. I fucked up with her mind and happiness. Though I can’t help it, I regret it. However, now, I need her to trust me so that we can move forward. I was a coward and didn’t have the guts to tell her the truth about my ex-wife, so I took the easy way out and found that hiding was best. Now, every time she says she needs time, I want to rip someone’s head off.
“Alisha, you can’t brush me off, and Ajay stays too.”
She lifts her hands in the air in frustration. “God, you are so damn stubborn!”
I grin at her comment and open my mouth to say that she is as stubborn as me but I don’t when I see her raise her eyebrows, daring me to counter back. Clamping my mouth shut, I take a few seconds before speaking, “I am here to discuss something.”
She continues to glare at me. “Please do tell me why are you here.”
“I have a small request to make, and I want you to hear me out.”I can’t help but run my hands over my face, while I anxiously wait for her response.
“Fine, ask what you have to. But after that, promise to leave me alone.”
Taking a deep breath, I nod my head. The hell I will leave her alone. I don’t want to agree, but at the moment, I don’t care about lying to her just to have her listen to me.Suddenly, my mouth goes dry, and I feel my knees go weak. I space out. I don’t know what I should say to make her see how much she means to me and how much I am hurting without her. I don’t even know if I have any words to express what I am going through. That’s when I opt to blurt out my fear.
“Please don’t file the divorce papers,” I come straight to the point as I voice my anxiety in a whisper. My lawyers contacted me to inform me that Alisha’s parents have sent a fresh set of divorce papers for me to sign, but I have not responded to it. This was another reason why I came here apart from begging her to give me a chance.
She rubs her temples and takes a deep breath. “Ranveer, I…”
“Please, just give me some time before you decide to pull our marriage to court.” She doesn’t look convinced, and I know it would take a little urging from my end. I look at her with desperation, praying like hell that she doesn’t interrupt me as I bare my feelings for her. “Do you have any idea how difficult it is for me to stay without you? Each day that I spend without you, I sink a little deeper into a pit of despair. The pain of fucking losing you is overpowering my senses. And like hell, it’s tearing me apart. I am not even sure for how long I can hold myself together before I shatter completely.” I pause, sucking in a deep breath. My hands move up to touch her face, but when she withdraws a bit, they fall beside me. This pains me. Nonetheless, I continue, “I know you are mad at me right now. I know I am the one who brought tears to your eyes, but trust me, that was never my intention.” I look at her, my eyes pleading with her to believe my words. “Please understand that I never meant to upset you. You need to know I kept the truth from you only because I didn’t want to lose you,” I say honestly. “You are my only hope in life. Don’t break my hope and me. Please give me one more chance.” I drag in a shaky breath. “My heart breaks into pieces when I see the grudge in your eyes. Tell me what I should do so that you can forgive me.” Without breaking eye contact with her, I beg, “I want you back. I want us back. I can’t bear the pain of staying away from you. I love you so much.” My eyes are brimming with unshed tears as I look at her with hope.
“Ranveer, I can’t be with you,” she shakes her head and says so softly that I feel I heard her wrong, but the tears running down her cheeks and the melancholy in her eyes confirms her words.
“Alisha, losing you will ruin my life. I can’t afford to lose you, Sweetheart. You are the only person I love and care about.” I take a step closer to her. “Please, don’t push me away. You are my everything.” I lift my hands to her face and wipe a tear from her cheek with my thumb. “Tell me, how can I make things right between us? What can I do so that you will trust me again?” The flood of emotions in her eyes makes me feel suffocated, maybe because of the fear that she’s going to say something I would not like to hear.
“I am not sure if I can ever make myself understand why you lied to me. I am still not over it, and I don’t even know if I will ever be able to forget it.” Her shoulders droop in a sigh of resignation as she gives me an unflinching gaze.
Her words are like a bullet in my chest. But I don’t let it deter me from pursuing her to let me back in her life. “I know it’s my mistake that has ruined our relationship. But believe me, I love you with all my heart. And, if waiting forever is what it will take me to have you, then I am willing to wait.” I swallow through the lump in my throat, reminding myself that eventually, I will have her in my life, no matter what.
“Ranveer,” she says in a defeated voice, like she has lost all hope. “I want to believe that what we have is true, but the fact remains that you chose to hide the truth from me when it was not only my right but also your duty to tell me about it. You have made me question everything about our relationship.”
“I get what I did was wrong, absolutely reprehensible, but please, just for once, remember the wonderful memories that led us to believe we were meant to be together. Can’t we get back to that?” I urge, suddenly finding it hard to breathe. My chest is heaving due to the rapid movements. “Please let go of my one lie. Please, let me fix this. Please forgive me and help me get everything back to normal. Please, Sweetheart.”
However, she vehemently shakes her head and mumbles, “I don’t know if there can ever be ‘us’. I know you will never wash your hands from Mili, and knowing the situation, I will never ask you to. But Mili will keep Soha in your life. She will always be there. Don’t you see that? She will always be a part of your life—our life, if I were to be a part of this again. I can’t bear that.” She holds back a sob as she adds, “You need to understand that I can’t come back into your life. And the only way out of this is to move on and part ways.”
“No,” I panic. “I won’t let you do this to us!”
She ignores me and says instead, “Let me go, Ranveer!”
“I can’t let you go. I can’t picture life without you by my side, Sweetheart.” I cup her face in my hands as I hold her there with my eyes pinned on her.Her words are ripping me apart. Imustconvince her, come what may.“I love you. It’s always been you. Please, I want another chance to win your love.”
She blinks and steps away from my touch. “Mili needs you. You need to go back to your daughter. It’s over between us.”The last bit is said so softly that it is a strain for me to catch it. However, the hollow expression in her eyes confirms it.
“There is no way in hell I will let you break us. I am not going to let you end our marriage. You will always be mine.” My heartbeats are erratic, thinking about the consequences.This is not what we both want. I must convince her that we are meant to be together.
She lowers her head and then looks at me. “I wish I could say that we can pick up from where we left off, but the truth is, our marriage is over. Love is not enough anymore.”
