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Turns out, I was wrong.
It’s not fucking bullshit.
It’s real. And even more painful than the lyrics lead you to believe.
I woke up this morning thinking I was dying.
But I was wrong.
Now. Right fucking now, I am dying. Metaphorically bleeding out all over the old flagstone floor.
“What’s wrong?” Reese asks, looking back at me from over his shoulder from where he’s sitting at the dining table.
My lips part and my chin drops, but no words come out.
I can’t…
I can’t tell them what she’s done.
I let her in. Despite what everyone else in this school thought—knew—I let Raine into my life, into our lives. Into my little sister’s inner circle and this is what she does.
I was right about her in those first few days.
She never belonged here.
“Theo?” he says, pushing the chair out and getting to his feet. “What’s going on, you look like—”
“I can’t,” I force out, my eyes dropping to the floor so he can’t see the pain and utter devastation in my eyes.
“You can’t what? What’s happened?” He’s trying to stay calm, but the panic is starting to edge into his voice. “The girls just left to take Millie for milkshakes to cheer her up. They’re okay, right?”
I nod, suddenly understanding his panic.
He’s got a girl who hasn’t ripped his heart into a million and one tiny shards.
A girl he loves.
A girl who loves him back just as hard.
Voices filter through the Chapel behind me. Laughter. Fucking laughter as if everything is okay. As if my world isn’t falling apart.
I guess that’s it, though. It’s my world. No one else’s. As far as they are concerned, everything is cushty.
“Shit. What happened?” Elliot asks, the first to notice me standing here looking like I no longer have a place.
“I don’t know, he won’t say anything,” Reese says, a deep crease between his brows.
“Bro, you good?” Oak says, clamping his hand over my shoulder. “Shit,” he breathes when he ducks down and meets my eyes. “What the fuck was in that shit your dealer gave you? This is some fucking come down.”
“It’s not a fucking come down. It’s the fucking end. It’s over,” I shout, suddenly unable to stay quiet. “After everything. Everything I’ve done. Everything we’ve done. It’s fucking over.”
“Okay, man. Let’s go and sit down, yeah. Reese, coffee. And make it fucking strong.”
“I don’t need fucking coffee.”
“Didn’t say it was for you,” he mutters. “And text the girls, find out what the fuck has gone down.”
“This was Raine?” Oak asks, looking shocked and he looks between the three of us like the answer is just going to appear out of thin air.
