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Eleanor
And what is that?
Everything.I want fucking everything.
I stared at her across the table.“How did you do it, Ellie?How did you live like this, knowing he was your real future, and I was just this thing you were obligated to do?”I ran my hand through my hair.
“I didn’t know that’s what was happening,” she said.“I thought Silas and I were a fling.”
“Are you a fucking idiot?”I ask without thinking.Luckily, the comment makes her laugh.
“Yes, I was.Don’t be like me.Tell me this: me or her?”
“Her.So much more.In a different way.”I told her.I expect her to be upset by this news, but her grin widened.
“Don’t fuck this up, Mason.Claim that.”
“You’re supposed to talk me out of this,” I grumbled.
“And I would if I thought it was just a good time.That’s not what it is.I’ve grown emotionally enough to recognize the importance of that difference.Don’t.Be.Like.Me.”She stared at me with a look I knew meant she wasn’t backing down.
“What if she doesn’t want my fucked-up shit?”I said just above a whisper.
“She would’ve found someone else.Has she?”
“No.I don’t think so.”
“Go,” she urges.
“But —”
“I’m telling you right now, tell her.Fuck all the other shit.Before she finds someone else.”
“I can’t, Elle.It’s too complicated.”
“Well, who is the fucking idiot now?You have to choose, Mason.Do you to live your life afraid to take a risk with the court of public opinion, or do you want to actually live your life?”With that, she pushed her mug away from her before standing to leave.“I’m meeting Silas.I’ve got to run.”
I stood to hug her.There were many years in my life I thought Eleanor Roberts was the only woman for me.I loved her, and she loved Silas.The day Candace walked into my life everything changed.I didn’t obsess over her the way I obsessed over Candace.IneededCandace.My days sucked now that I wasn’t waking up with her in my arms.Even if we weren’t fucking, I wanted her there.I loved sharing a drink with her at the end of the day and cooking dinner together on the nights I was home early enough.The way she takes care of not only Wyatt, but me.Eleanor cared about me—and Wyatt, but this was on a different level.
But I was an elected official, and she was the much younger daughter of another congressperson.And the nanny.I had already fucked up so much with the public watching.It had only been a year since I admitted to not only having a secret child, but that my wife’s sister was the mother of said child.If people found out I was screwing the nanny, I’d be eviscerated.Not to mention my father was campaigning for the presidency.It would hurt his campaign.It wasn’t just my life I would mess with.
Maybe in a different life, I would’ve told Candace that I wanted more.In this life, however, it wasn’t meant to be.Maybe once my term is over?Yeah, like she’d wait around another three years.And then I’d do what?
No.It had to be this way.This fucking sucks.
Chapter24
Candace
July
Months of wanting to throw myself at Mason and also beg him to want me enough to just take me had me itching to get laid.Stolen touches in the kitchen or when putting Wyatt to sleep was making me downright frustrated.
“It’s been months, Elyse.Tonight, we break my dry spell.”I held up the first shot of the night.
“Happy twenty-first, Candi!Let’s get you laid for your birthday!”Dressed to kill, Elyse wore a mini-skirt and a tube top.She tried to convince me to do the same, but skirts and clubs always gave me anxiety.What if I went ass over teakettle and I flashed the club?No thanks.Instead, I wore the shortest pair of denim shorts I owned and a low-cut halter top.I paired the outfit with my favorite red stilettos.
I was happy to be home for my birthday.Not only because things in Mason’s house had been so hot and cold since Cee got out of the hospital, but because I had a bunch of friends at home to celebrate.
