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Debbie races over to them, but she’s no match for two guys, both at least six feet tall.
Something inside of me boils over, and I scream at the top of my lungs, “Stop!”
Both of them pause and turn toward me, surprised to hear something so large come out of me. Honestly, I’ve surprised myself, but I felt that feeling deep in my soul that reminded me of my dad and the way he used to yell on the football field.
They must have, too, because they are both wearing an expression of shock on their faces.
Debbie breaks them up even more, and as they both stand, I finally put my foot down.
“How could you both? Don’t you realize what’s going on in my head right now?” My voice starts to crack, but I blink and hold my head high. “You both have been such a big part of my life. My life that, as of yesterday, is officially over. That high school is all I’ve ever known, and with my dad gone too, I have nothing.”
Beau steps toward me. “That’s not true. You have me.”
Aaron starts to protest, and I hold up my hand to stop him before he can speak.
“Please. I need to make this decision for myself. Just please, give me time to do that.”
I race back to the house, tears falling down my face again as I leave both of them standing there, all three of us having no clue what our future holds.
* * *
I never left my room yesterday. Thankfully, Aaron respected my boundaries and Debbie brought me food. It wasn’t until this morning that I realized I had to get out of this house to truly think before I could make up my mind. Since I hardly slept a wink, I slipped out of the house before Aaron or Debbie were even awake.
I hiked up a hill that overlooks the lake, and as I sit here perched on a rock, with my knees curled into my chest, I stare at the sky while it changes colors with the sunrise. Like my current state of emotions, the ever-changing tones of red, orange and pink fill the morning sky just as fast as my mind races through my options.
I try to focus on why I have feelings for both of them and what those feelings truly mean. Debbie said it is possible to love two people at once, but I feel like they both can’t be my soulmates.
That’s what my parents were to each other. They were a team, meant for only one another, and it showed every day I saw them together. Their love was obvious to anyone who paid attention. It wasn’t hidden or questioned. It was natural between the two of them.
That’s what I want.
I never want to wonder if I’m enough, or if what we have is real with anyone I decide to be with.
As that thought hits me, my mind becomes a little clearer. When I envision my life, I want someone who I know will always be there. Who I never have to question.
I let out a slow breath as I squeeze my legs tighter and look up to the sky.
I feel the presence of my parents around me, looking down on me.
I close my eyes and say out loud, “Please guide me, Mom and Dad. Please help me get past what is blinding me from the choice I’m supposed to make.”
When I open my eyes, only one face pops into my head. A tear slides down my face as I squeeze them tight again and take a deep inhale.
“I love you both. Thank you for giving me the best life and still giving to me now. I know I’ll be okay because I have two guardian angels by my side.”
Opening my eyes, I nod my head, and for the first time see my future clearly, including who I want by my side.
I stand up feeling this jolt of energy I’ve been missing for so long. It’s more than a jolt of energy, it’s my parents’ love surrounding me, and I know that’s all I’ll ever need to make it through life.
As I head back down the mountain, I know exactly who I want.
* * *
As I approach the house, I see him sitting on the porch steps. He’s already up and moving toward me before I even reach the lawn. When I stare into his eyes, I see the love I saw between my parents and know right then, without a doubt, I made the right choice.
How could I have even questioned it?
I reach my hand toward him, lacing my fingers with his.
