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He caught my mouth and my arse at the same time, showing both just as much attention.
I glanced at the clock on our bedside cabinet and looked back at him.
"I should go," he said and I nodded.
I admired the view and wrapped the duvet around myself, feeling shy under his intense stare.
Once dressed he came back, kissing me on the forehead and lips before rushing off.
Not even a restingbitch face could save me now. There was no disguising it.
I. Was.Shitting.It.
My head was a scrambled mess, trying to pull all the positive energy to the forefront of my mind.
Breathing helped, although I had forgotten to do that a few times. Lilly attempted speech with me, as did Kit but it was useless. I was numb, totally and utterly numb. I wasn't sure why. Obviously, it was natural to be scared. I was terrified, as if something would have drastically changed since the last verdict.
That all of the worry, stress and anxiety I'd allowed myself to brew was finally going to catch up with me. With my baby.
I gave one last look at Lilly as Kit led me after the lady who had just called my name. There was no doctor Simone today. Instead, we saw one of the nurses on his team.
Lilly wanted to come too, I knew it. I loved her for wanting to give Kit and myself our privacy and I was too speechless to voice that to her.
Instead, I focused on a corner in the darkened room and laid back, pulling my leggings down to my now exposed stomach.
Lot's was said, the lady was very informative, telling us what she was looking for, what she could see. I stared at the screen as she placed a lube covered probe to my stomach and began shifting it around, displaying weird black markings on the screen. I took a huge breath then, feeling the fog clear a little as I laid my eyes upon our baby and they're little heartbeat.
"Are we finding out the sex?" she asked and I looked at Kit.
"Yes," I said, not taking my eyes off of him.
It felt like a lifetime, because she wasn't planning on telling us straight away. First we went through the full scan, making sure everything was well in proportion and healthy looking. I was so happy to see and hear that our baby was doing fantastic. Part of my crazy brain had convinced me that everything I'd put my body through would potentially hurt the baby in some way.
I stared into space, emotions clouding my eyes and it wasn't until Kit gripped my hand that I snapped out of it.
"Hi," he smiled once I'd stared at him, and it reminded me of our first meeting. The first day I decided I couldn't stand him.
"Hi," I smiled back. I didn't know it was possible to love someone so much. For it it cloud your mind, make you feel sick with anticipation but happy about it at the same time. My body was beholden to him, and so was my heart.
"Okay, you ready?" the lady asked.
It made me stare at her and I smiled, nodding.
"Okay, let's see."
This woman was great at anticipation, she should have been hosting a baby gender reveal show…
"I'm about ninety percent certain that this little wiggly-bum is a little girl," she smiled and my heart stopped long enough for me to stare at Kit. His face mirrored mine until eventually he smiled and blew out a breath.
"Boy am I in trouble," he said but once he stared at the screen that showed our perfect baby’s face, he looked as if he may actually cry. He brought my hand to his mouth to kiss and coughed away a lump I could hear himself clearing away.
"We better go buy some pink stuff," he grinned and a thought came across my head that made me chuckle.
"What?"
"Five, big Carson brothers walking out of mothercare with a bunch of tiny baby girl stuff. I can'twaitto see that."
He smiled after taking a deep intake of breath.
