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How does she make me lose myself so easily?
Reluctantly, I hand Gabi my phone as I pull my jeans back on. Her eyes are locked on my body while she speaks into the phone, explaining that she got locked in the locker room and did not realize she had her phone on her. She decided to call the grounds man, not her receptionist. Knowing that Toni would know exactly what was going on and not wanting to face that situation. She giggles when she hangs up. "He will be here in ten minutes."
"He believed you about the phone?"
"Yes. I don't think he even noticed that I was calling from a different number. I think I woke him up."
"So, we still have ten minutes?" I joke with her.
She eyes me up and down and grins. We get dressed slowly, both of us lost in thought. For me, I am thinking about her, wondering how this happened, wondering about how intensely she makes me feel - everything. I am starting to feel a little bit overwhelmed when I come to understand that she has me completely hooked on her. I don't think I will ever be able to forget this, and all I want is more of her.
Luckily the grounds man arrives before I get too lost in my own overwhelmed state and we thank him, then head to the reception desk where Gabi left her keys and her phone.
"I should call a taxi," I say, quietly.
"Oh. I can give you a lift obviously.
"Sure. That would be great. Thanks."
She locks the gym behind us, and I follow her to her car. I want to reach out and touch her, but I don't. When we are in the car she is focused on driving, and I am staring at her beautiful features. Again, I want to reach out and run my hand up the inside of her thigh, and again I don't.
She pulls into her driveway and unlocks the car. I climb out, feeling awkward and lost in my head.
"OK - well - have a nice night," I say, looking down at her. She crinkles her nose in the cute way she does when she is confused.
"You too, Alex." She says and I turn to walk towards my own house. Regretting not kissing her good night. Wondering if she wanted me to. Knowing that I wanted to.
CHAPTER 11
GABI
Iwalk towards the door of my home, repeating in my head to myself over and over again that I should not turn around and look at him. I want to see though if he is turning around to look at me. I continue to fight the urge. I do not understand how he can be so incredibly passionate and interested one moment and then the next he is cold and closed off. Perhaps it is time for me to just accept that sex is all he wanted, perhaps it is all he ever wanted? I mean I have to admit that it was a really unusual circumstance, being locked in the gym with him. If sex is all he wants, can I really be upset about that? It was mind-blowing being with him and I could never regret the experience. Just thinking about it now is making my entire body flustered all over again and I lose track of my thoughts for a brief moment. At that moment I turned around. Shit. I really did not want to do that. I see his front door closing; he is already inside. He was not watching me like I had hoped he was. I guess it is also a good thing because that way he does not have to know that I turned around to watch him.
But I feel angry now. I am not that easy. I do not just sleep with anyone for any random reason, and he must think of me as that kind of girl. I am notjustinterested in sex. I am really angry with myself that I am so attracted to him and even more angry that now I feel used and then tossed aside. How can he just drive all the way home without any interaction at all? He did not even speak to me. I felt so uncomfortable the entire way. And then when he said goodbye, it was just 'have a nice night'.Is that it? Is that all I get? Can he really be that shallow of a person?
I realize I am standing on my front step just staring at his door and hoping to hell that he has not been watching me now because I do not want to come across as desperate or weird.
I step inside my home lock everything up and head to my bed. I strip off my clothing and fall into the covers naked. I can catch a few hours of sleep before I have to be up for tomorrow's classes - technicallytoday'sclasses, seeing as it is already today.
My alarm goes off and I groan awake after way too little sleep. My first thought is of Alex, his gorgeous body, his devilish smile, and how badly I want to feel him pressed up against me. Then I come to my senses and sigh, burying my face in the pillow in annoyance. He is an asshole, he is not interested in me at all, only the sex.
I glance at my phone. I need to be at the gym in an hour but the thought of bumping into him when he brings Bella in for her class is making me feel ill. I don't feel strong enough to face him now.
I message a trainer who works in my gym.
Me: Hey Girl. Are you free today? I am feeling a little under the weather and I was hoping you could sub my classes for me this morning? It is the first two classes of the day.
Stella: Morning. I only have two classes booked for late afternoon so I can do your morning classes. Is that for the kids? The bully proof class?
Me: Yes, that's the one. Plus, an adult self-defense class after that one. Is that alright? Please, I cannot tell you how grateful I will be.
Stella: Of course. I hope you are feeling better soon. Get lots of rest.
Me: Thanks so much. I owe you one for sure.
I sigh in relief at the idea of not having to see Alex today. I do not know why I am feeling so upset over this. So what if he is not interested in me? He is not the nicest of people most of the time. Why would I even be bothered? But I am bothered.
I toss over in my bed and close my eyes, trying to fall asleep again. I try for thirty minutes but the thoughts of Alex are churning in my head and the frustration of how hurt I am feeling gets the better of me and stops me from being able to get any more rest.
