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“You’ve done more when we were playing. But I think it’s important that I do all thirty. Baby, I am very lenient with you, but I don’t think that’s what you need, is it? I think I had this all wrong. You need a strong lover to spank your ass, cuddle you close, and tell you hell no, when needed. It’s how we used to be, and then, when we had that conversation about marriage and children, I backed off.”
Becky nodded. “I know. That’s when you quit being my Dom in a real sense. I thought it might have been me. You didn’t want to be with me or that dynamic anymore.”
“That is all wrong and it’s my fault. I wasn’t secure enough in our relationship to push that envelope and tell you anything else, so I hedged and hid. I demand honesty from you, yet I allowed my fears to separate us when it was important to be open. That’s all on me. I made a big mistake, and I’m so sorry.”
Becky plucked at his flannel shirt buttons. “I think you’re right. It was then that I had trouble connecting. I felt disappointed when I pushed back hard against you exerting your position, and when you didn’t hold the line, it felt like I didn’t matter as much, or you didn’t want to be with me anymore. It hurt.”
Carter held her tight. “I know, and I felt that was the problem, but after I started down that road, I wasn’t sure you would be okay with changing things back. I needed to face my fears, then conquer them. But it all starts with you.”
Becky leaned back and looked into his earnest, vulnerable eyes. “I do want things to go back to where they were. I’ve missed my Daddy, and I’ve missed my Carter. I’ve missed it all,” she said in a near whisper.
“Then that’s where we go. Start back at the beginning. We’ll go slow and ease into it if you like.”
“Carter, I don’t need to ease back into it. I miss our dynamic so much. I misslivingit. We refer to the lifestyle and dance around it, but I want it to be real again, not when things get crazy but every day.”
Carter was quiet as he examined Becky to see if it was truly what she wanted. No saying yes when she didn’t mean it. He saw only openness in her expression and hope.
He cleared his throat and nodded. “Good enough. Let’s start as we mean to go. Our rules are back in place with the extraones rescinded, except being more careful of your surroundings. If anything changes, if you feel off, or that something is not quite right, you must tell me immediately.”
“Within reason.” Carter’s brows raised, and Becky clarified. “I mean if I can’t get through to you because you are on a high-stakes assignment.”
“Then you’d be at someone’s house, not staying here alone. You know the roster and who to call first. I think you created it. The team has decided that is how we will do things from now on. Our women don’t stay alone if we are on a VIP assignment.”
“Carter, that isn’t necessary.”
“Yes, it is, and it’s how we’re doing this. No arguments, or there will be consequences.”
“Is it too late to change my answer?”
“Yep. We’re doing this.” He kissed her lips hard and thoroughly.
Becky sighed and spoke in a low voice, “Yes, we are.”
Carter dropped another kiss on her lips and put her on her feet. “Time to pay the piper, baby. Drop your panties.”
“But my head hurts now.”
A slow smile spread across Carter’s face. He ran his thumb over Becky’s lips, and she sent her tongue to meet it, circling, sucking on the tip, staring into his eyes. Her eyes were dark with arousal.
“You are one sexy woman, Rebecca Shea Carrington, and headaches are truly bothersome. Crying will do that to you, but now I think we need to get the punishment over, so you only have one tear-induced headache to deal with instead of another one later.”
“I don’t think this relationship is fair.”
Carter chuckled. “Okay, so what do you think should happen to make this fair? Spankings every day for a month to balance things out?”
“No, that isn’t what I mean. What I mean is when I make a mistake and choose to do the wrong thing, I get punished, but when you make a choice that you know is the wrong thing, you get no punishment.”
“Like what?”
“Like when you avoided the situation and backed away from me when we discussed marriage. You left me emotionally adrift. You always talk about honesty, yet you weren’t open and honest and still aren’t. That is a punishable offense.”
“Fair enough. So, what do you want as penance?”
“I want to... um... damn it. I get a chance to turn the tables, and I can’t do anything. It’s just not the way we do things in our relationship. I don’t want to be the one who chastises.”
Carter smiled. “Okay, how about this? After I spank you for your unfortunate choices, I’ll come clean about why I have reservations about children, and we can talk it out while you eat ice cream.”
“Rocky Road? It has nuts and those are healthy.”
