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“You better make it right with him, Declan.” I warn him softly, holding his gaze, “or I promise you will regret it.”
I let that simmer down as I turn on my heel and storm away from him. I just don’t understand him sometimes because there’s no reason that Declan should have done something so stupid. It’s clear to me that he’s just being an idiot at this point but that’s fine. I’ll take it one stop at a time and go from there.
I just hope that Craig might actually stand there and listen to what we have to say. I do hope that none of it happened in vain.
Chapter Seven
Declan
After everything that Sophia had told me, I quickly began to realize that maybe I had made a mistake. No, I don’t like the idea of sharing Sophia with someone, but I also don’t like the idea of losing her either. That’s my biggest fear at this point and I will continue to live by that because I just know that if I let my jealousy get the best of me, I’m never going to be okay after that. I just stared at him from across the room, having spotted him in a library. I don’t know what he’s doing out here like this but he doesn’t even seem affected by the idea that he might never see either one of us again.
I’m sure he doesn’t care if he sees me or not, but I did think that he would have fought for Sophia. No, I hate the idea of sharing her with someone who isn’t me, but I can’t let that get to me. I can’t let someone else win because of my jealousy. I need to figure out how I’m going to do this before I lose the best thing that ever happened to me. Sophia… I have to make this right.
He lifts his head as if he can hear what I’m thinking and I see the pissed expression on his face. The people around him must have noticed the sudden tension in the air because they immediately rise to their feet, gathering up their things and running away almost. I purse my lips, knowing that I’m going to deserve everything that is coming my way at this point. I would love to make excuses and say that I didn’t do anything to deserve this but I did. I’m going to end up regretting all of this and I don’t even know what to make of it.
I just hope that Sophia forgives me for whatever I decide.
Rising to my feet, I walk towards him in the library. You can almost hear a pin drop by how quiet it is, seeing how people are giving us a wide berth. I don’t even care so much at this point because nothing I do is going to change the fact about anything. I know how he feels about me at this point, I can see it on his face. Drawing in a deep breath, I sit across from him at the table, seeing how it looks like the pencil he is holding could break at any moment.
“Craig.” I greet him softly, trying to keep my voice down, “I have been looking for you. I…”
“What are you doing here, Declan?” He growls at me, “I thought you made it perfectly clear that you didn’t want me around you or Sophia? I did exactly what you asked for but you keep showing up here UNIVITED like you own the place. I thought you wanted me to stay away.”
“I did.” I agree with him, trying to lessen the blow as much as possible, “and I… I made a mistake, Craig, and I hope that you can forgive me. I was so hyped up by the fact that Sophia had been my mate for so many years that I didn’t want to even think about the possibility of having another mate. I didn’t want one. I didn’t want to share one bit. I know it might sound selfish of me right now but I honestly thought that I was doing the right thing. I…”
“Doing the right thing?” He spits at me, his hands balling into fists, “do you honestly think that you’re doing the right thing when you continuously treat me like shit? I have done NOTHING to you, Declan, and you automatically made me the enemy. How do you think that makes me feel?”
His guard is up and I don’t blame him for that either.
“I made a mistake.” I admit to him, running my fingers through my hair as I really do hate apologizing, “and you can be mad at me all you want but nothing is going to change the fact that I’m right. I’ve done everything that I can to make sure that Sophia is happy and if that means that I need to keep you by her side to do so, then I will do it. I’m sure you can understand that.”
His jaw jerks up as his eyes narrow coldly, “I don’t care at this point. You two can have each other and leave me out of it because it’s only going to cause me nothing but heartache that I don’t want to deal with. I’m sure you can understand my reasoning.”
I’m shocked at the fact that he’s just letting her walk away like that and not fighting for her, “are you serious? You’re the one who went apeshit on me about not backing down and walking away, but you’re doing exactly that!”
I don’t even care that I am yelling in the middle of a library because I am so pissed at this point.
“If you want to be mad at someone, stay mad at ME!” I snap at him, feeling like my nerves are about to explode, “I am the one who pissed you off and who you should remain mad at. I know that I royally screwed up and I’m going to have to live with that for the rest of my life but I don’t want to see Sophia get hurt because of us. If you don’t want to do it for me, then do it for her. Give us another chance to win your heart over. At least try.”
He’s just staring at me at this point and I honestly feel like I’m not winning this at all. I know the only person I can blame is myself, but I do feel like he is giving up so easily. I don’t know why he can just do that because there is no reason to. If he continues to give up like that, I just have this bad feeling that he’s going to regret it. Is he really okay with losing Sophia like that? Does he honestly not care if they are never together again? Just the idea of losing her like that is enough to make me sick to my stomach. I wouldn’t even be able to imagine losing her like that. I would rather die honestly.
“Just think about what I said, Craig.” I whisper to him, hoping that I am getting through to him, “Sophia is already bonded to you. Me… Well, I’m not there yet but I’m willing to try if you are. I know it might be a little late to be asking this but can you please forgive me and give us both a second chance? I promise that you will not regret it.”
I’m begging at this point because I do have this bad feeling that Sophia would end up pushing me away if I didn’t come home with Craig. I thought that I was ready to face the repercussions of my actions but at this point, I’m honestly scared. I’m really afraid of losing her and that’s not what I want to happen. If I allow him to walk away, then I think that Sophia wouldn’t forgive me like I thought that she would.
He lets out a sigh, shaking his head. I’m not sure what that meant but he rises to his feet, gathering up his things. My jaw drops ever so slightly because to me, it is like he is giving up. But when his eyes finally meet mine, I relax a little bit at what I see there.
“You better not make me regret this.” He warns me, “I will not give you another chance.”
I wouldn’t have respected him if he did.
Chapter Eight
Sophia
I have this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that Craig is never going to be able to forgive Declan. Honestly, I wouldn’t have even been able to blame him because of Declan’s actions and how he is being such an asshole right now. I don’t know what’s going through his head when he keeps treating Craig like crap but I do know it has to be jealousy or something. That much I can say at this point because why on Earth would Declan be acting like this? We had talked numerous times about adding another person but I didn’t think he would get so butt hurt because of it.
I settle myself on the couch, feeling like a weight is on my shoulders trying to keep me down. I’m not sure what’s going through Declan’s had but I don’t want to lose either one of them. It’s strange but I already feel connected to Craig, a strange sensation inside of me is screaming to the fact that I could very well lose Craig if I make the wrong mistake. Or, I could also push Declan away in the process and not mean to. I don’t want to lose either one of them but I don’t want to just pick one. I shouldn’t’ have to be told to do that.
