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“You guys should grab something to eat,” Tina said rather gruffly, but not before she disappeared toward the back of the stage, where I could hear the other girls excited by her appearance.
Oliver put his hand on Dustin’s shoulder, lightly squeezing it. “Dustin, youneedto feed.”
Dustin’s eyes looked at me before he spoke, circles forming under his eyelids. “No, I’m fine.”
“No, you’renot, brother.”
“I said I’mfine!” It was more of a low growl and a demand than anything else.
“Look, you can try to act like this version of yourself that you want Freya to see all you want. But sooner or later, you’ll have to feed, or you’ll end up hurting her by accident. And I doubt you want that.”
Was he not eating because of me? I felt sick because I didn’t want him to either.
I selfishly didn’t want him to sleep with another woman while I just sat there waiting. I didn’t want to envision him withanyone,if I was being honest.
“Feed on me.” I offered, my words blurted out before I could even process what I was saying. My teeth tore through my lower lip as if to prevent myself from backing out, a bit of blood pooled in my mouth from it. “Feed on me,” I repeated.
The two boys looked up at me with wide eyes- like deer in headlights. I could see the temptation dripping off of them. Their pale silver beans all but bore into me.
“Don’t be ridiculous.” Dustin scoffed. “First of all, I’m not fucking you for the first time in a dirty strip club. Second, I doubt that would be a wise decision on my part.”
Oliver shrugged, intrigued by what I had said. “Dustin’s right, I’m not sure that he should feed on you in his current state, but I-”
Dustin reached his hand across his brother’s chest, pushing him to the floor with gritted teeth. He looked rabid as hespoke each word dryly. “Don’t. Even. Try.” He then diverted his attention to me when he realized I was serious. “You would really want to have our first time here? As apityfuck?”
I wouldn’t have put it like that, but there were worse things in the world. I may have been inexperienced, but it wasn’t as if I was losing my virginity. I was a woman with needs, just like anyone else. I convinced myself that even though this was so uncharacteristically me, I wanted it. The curiosity of him was almost as seductive as his looks. And-god- I wanted to know what it felt like to be with someone like him, even for just one night. I had given up fighting this urge mainly because it felt pointless to resist it. My fate felt unmistakably connected to his like I was not in control of my life anymore.
“I’ve been losing control and killing the women Ifuck, Freya. I don’t know what’s happening, but I can’t lose anyone else today. At least not someone like you.” His eyes sunk as he lifted his hand to my cheek, letting his two fingers brush the single strand of hair that fell in my face behind my ear. He gently grabbed my chin with that hand, pulling me up to him. “I won’t be the cause ofyourdeath.”
Out of instinct, I took a step back at his words. He hadkilledpeople. He was a killer, just like the deathwalker, and I had feltsafewith him. I still felt safe with him. The thought was as perplexing as I felt.
“You’re right to be scared of me.” That was all he said. His face sunk downward, stepping further away from me.
I reached forward for him. “I didn’t mean to do that. It was just a reflex.” My head shook.
“Well, you’re either delusional or as fucked up as me then.” He laughed at himself, but it felt chaotic and disturbed. “I’ve wanted to fuck you since the day I met you and trust me whenI tell you that I had no good intentions or well-being toward you. I was well prepared for the possibility of killing you. And I was okay with that. I would have gone about my day like any other, and you would have been another dead body in my wake. "
“You don’t mean that!” I reached for him once more, but he took another step back.
“Oh, trust me, I mean every word. I would have delighted in breaking you. Just for the sole satisfaction of having something that shouldn’t be mine in the first place.”
“If you meant that, then why not fuck me now? Why care?” I stomped my foot, yelling loudly.
I didn’t care who heard me. I didn’t care if the strangers in the strip club all stared. He wasnotabout to pretend that we didn’t have this unexpected connection. He was not about to push me away when he needed me most. I knew it. He knew it, so why was he insistent on denying it? Did he think this would make him feel better?
“Because if you die, they died fornothing!” He yelled back this time, leaning forward in my face, reminding me of the very guilt that swam in my stomach. “You’re nothing to me, Freya. The sooner you realize that the better off you’ll be.” He growled, walking away from me like I was nothing. Like he hadn’t just crushed a part of my heart.
A few snickers from some girls in the back tore through me harsher than I expected. Their sounds echoed in the back of my mind, reminding me that I was nothing to no one. Reminding me of all the internal insecurities I had built up over the years.
He didn’t look back at me or see if I was okay. Instead, he waltzed right toward the giggling escapade of girls, and I hadto watch as he lured one of them in his gaze. Her blonde hair fell over her shoulders as she sunk into his embrace, not even hesitating. His hands ripped through her hair, pinning her against the nearest wall as his tongue explored her body carelessly. Sloppy even.
His hands tore her clothes off, exposing her as everyone watched in awe, a few men throwing dollars at them as if it were a part of the show.
Dustin growled against her breast, pulling her to the side, out of sight from almost everyone except me. From where I stood, I could still see them. My eyes stubbornly refused to look away. Refused to stop torturing myself even though I knew I shouldn’t keep looking, that my heart couldn’t watch this.
He was so carnal, so aggressive that I wasn’t sure if I was more scared of him or that I might have been too plain for him. Maybe I wasn’t enough of the kind of seductress he needed. Or wanted.
How could I be enough for him? I was nothing special, just a fascination. He was right.
