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"Hey!" Kellen shouts, "Where ya been?"
Echo and I look at each other before turning back to Kellen.
"Guess." Echo says.
Echo
"Can you pass the salt?" I ask Callum. He freezes for a moment before melting entirely and passing it, trying to hold back a smile. His eyes dance with an emotion I can't place, but he's happy.
So am I. Opening myself up, in my own ways, has proven to be successful. Though, my idiotic stunt at that club only cemented my feelings. I get more comfortable with the idea of us together everyday. The anxiety of the unknown still lingers, sticking to me like a shadow. But I still try.
Maybe I can be Peter Pan.
We've been spending more time together. Not only meeting up for sex, but just to hangout. Cuddle and watch tv.
It is a bit jarring though the transition has been slow. Probably because even back when we first began, we never really did things like that. Callum mentioning his internalized homophobia when he came out really put things into perspective, and I'm ashamed that as a bisexual man I never considered it before.
It explains a lot.
Theres no point regetting the past, though. What's done is done; you can't unscramble eggs.
"Have you been working on anything new?" I ask Callum, referring to our music.
"I've composed a few tunes, but I need Kellen and Oliver to give me the lyrics."
"I guess you couldn't be perfect."
"What do you mean?"
"You're a music prodigy, but you can't write songs."
"Superpowers need weaknesses Superman. You should know that." he winks.
I hate the way he makes me blush. It's so embarrassing. I can't deny that it also feels good.
Could I have had this sooner?
No.
I think if any of Kellen's whackadoo proverbs hold water, it's that everything happens for a reason. I believe that. This is the way things were meant to go. Heartbreak, hate, and all.
After our meal, we're snuggled on the couch watching a new action movie. Callum traces patterns on my arm with his fingertips. We've gotten more and more touchy with each passing day.
We still haven't kissed. I can tell Callum is giving that decision to me, like he has many others. I want to. I want to compare it to the past. If it feels just a good or better.
Fear grips me tightly. No matter how much I open up there's still those small details. I'm afraid we might never move past these last few hurdles and I'll just be heartbroken all over again. I don't know if I'd survive it this time.
Giving those last pieces away are like removing what's left of my armor during a battle. I'm exposing all of my weak spots, and not just that his accent makes me dick leak.
It's giving him all the power and tools to hurt me again.
"Hey! I didn't know she was in this!"
I pay attention to the movie, tensing when I see Cozi Adair's gorgeous face on the screen. Callum has told me the truth about their history, and I know they're still friends, but I can't help the nausea that forms in my stomach.
Callum is gay.
Their relationship wasn't real.
