AllFreeNovel
Share Us
“Someone closer to my age, not that it’s any of your fucking business.” Her tone is moody and defensive. “You won’t mind, will you? Or are you going on a date of your own?”
Will her believing the ruse that I’m fucking another women make her more likely to fuck her date tomorrow?
Ugh. I feel sick. And I have no fucking reason to, because she has every right to do as she pleases — like she said.
As much as I wish things were different, she’s not actually mine, and I shouldn’t act like she is.
“I’ll be alone tomorrow,” I say with a tight smile. “You want me to take Viv overnight, so you can bring your date back here?”
“Oh.” Jem frowns slightly. “Could you? That’d be amazing. I haven’t been laid in forever, and I’m feeling pretty horny, after your mouth was tugging on me. I definitely need to go out and find some cock to ride.”
I swallow hard and force a smile. “I don’t mind at all. You’re grown woman with needs, and you can satisfy those any way you like, as you well know. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
19
JEM
Gunnar Scott might have a girlfriend, but he’s definitely obsessed with my milky tits.
He doesn’t pursue his obvious interest, and I have no desire to bethe other woman, but I do enjoy his appreciative glances and my daydreams, in which we explore the fetish. Whenever I breastfeed around him, he does his best to avert his eyes and hide his hard dick, and when I intentionally test his resolve, I can tell from the tension in his jaw and the string seams of his jeans that he’s fucking pining for me. I just don’t know what to do with that information.
I may be pining for him too.
He diligently provides everything Viv and I could need, and he’s polite and civil, and he does what I want every time I ask — including keeping his sexual advances to himself. Since I told him to stop confusing me, he’s basically stopped giving me any of the extra attention he had been.
I miss it.
I didn’t think I would, and I appreciate the way he prioritizes our odd little family’s needs above all else, but hisDoting Daddyvibes pull me into a needy spin every time he’s near, and I find myself constantly wanting more from him. I miss his heatedgazes, and I ache for his touch. He’s surrounded me with love and kindness without pressing for more, but I want to feel his love against my skin.
It’s unsettling
I thought being alone would be easier, but Gunnar’s helping me create the family I always wanted, and by doing so, he makes me dream of a life different from the one I thought would be best for me.
He confuses me even when he’s doing his best not to. Why is it so seductive to be cared for? He’s helped me stitch my shredded life back together, making the seams stronger so I can count on them to hold.
Dad and Gabe have recommitted to each other, and they’re stable. They’re each other’s best medicine, it seems, and I’m grateful I don’t have to worry about them. It’s a real load off my mind.
They’re pretty good with Viv, and I know they love me, but our relationship may never fully heal. They’re not as interested in my life as they are in each other, which is fine, but I’ve gone from being essential to the running of the family, to being sort of unnecessary.
It’s like I got so good at looking after myself that nobody thinks to check in with me, to see if I need any support.
Except Gunnar.
And I’ve been fake-dating people, to keep him at a distance, while also hoping to make him jealous — which is stupid when he’s dating someone else. I just want him to believe I’m sought after. I want him to think other people desire and love me, but the truth is, nobody really does. Not the way I’d like them to. Nobody makes me feel wanted the way he does.
I thought no strings was the best option.
But a heart without strings is a lonely thing.
I didn’t want to give my heart away, when the people I’ve loved have only broken it, but if I think about it, Gunnar gave me back both of my dads. If he hadn’t stepped in to say something and shown me how to hold my fathers accountable, where would I be right now? Still struggling to take care of Viv and my Dad and my career. Something was going to have to give, but with Gunnar involved, I didn’t have to give up anything. Everything got easier. Andbetter.
He’s calm and steady, and he listens like he’s actually interested in the things I say. And even though I told him I didn’t want him, he keeps showing up each day, to love his daughter and support her mom.
I feel loved by him.
More so than by anyone else.
And despite my efforts not to, I think I love him too.
