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“Thanks for reminding me,” he whispered, putting on a condom before pushing my head down and then grabbing my hips. With one deep thrust he was inside me. “Fuck, Nat. You feel good!” Unable to answer him, I moaned and closed my eyes, lost in the sensations. He was relentless, thrust after thrust. I had been so close before he flipped me over that I began to shudder very quickly. “No! Fuckingwaitfor me!” Wrapping my hair around his hand, he pulled me up against his chest. “Not yet, Baby.”
“Ungh…I…I can’t…” I was already beginning to fall as he gripped my breasts, rolling his thumbs over my nipples. “Fuuuuucccckkkkk!” Calling out, I slumped against Alex, but he kept me upright as he climaxed right after me.
“Fucking hell, yes!” His mouth was against my ear, and his come voice made me shudder with pleasure. “I’m never going to get enough of you,” he gasped, pulling out of me. After throwing the used condom into his bin, he collapsed on his bed.
“You like a lot of sex. Are you an addict?” I questioned, leaning on his chest as I ran my hands down his sternum a while later.
“I’m addicted to everything else,” he snorted, looking up at the ceiling. “You seem to like a lot of sex, too,” he mused, watching me trace his ‘V’ with my fingertips. Alex really had the most incredible body. Considering what he put inside it, that shocked me. “Why aren’t you settled down with some hot shot back in London?”
“What?”
“You’re twenty nine, Nat. A woman of your beauty would have been snapped up if you wanted to be.”
“I’ve only ever wanted one man,” I muttered, not looking up at him.
“David?” he asked, moving a stray hair from my face. “How long did the two of you…?”
“It was on and off for four years.” His eyes widened at my confession. I don’t think he expected it to have been going on that long. “Then he got with Sarah Greaves and I finished it.”
“But he wanted to continue?” I nodded. “Asshole. He made a huge mistake. You’re a fucking goddess, Nat. I thought that the moment I set eyes on you.”
“When you thought I was a groupie?”
“Youarea fucking groupie. You just didn’t admit it at first.” He reached over to pick up his sweats. “Do you want a drink?” It was almost midnight, but this was his usual routine. He’d either have a drink or do line of coke and sit out on the balcony for a few hours. I often joined him because I liked looking up at the sky when it was a clear night. It was also the time we really talked and he shared who he really was. I was learning so much about him. Underneath that rock star ego, he wasn’t a bad guy.
“Sure.” He passed me a shirt of his, and I put it on while he poured me a drink. “I’m just going to the bathroom.”
He was already out on the balcony when I walked out. “Does it amaze you how this city never sleeps? So many twinkle lights. I might buy a place in the middle of nowhere one day so I can have complete silence.”
“You don’t seem like the silent type of guy, Alex,” I chuckled, sitting next to him. “You like chaos and noise.”
“Maybe,” he sighed, sipping on his whiskey bottle. “I’ve thought about getting away from it all. You know, becoming a recluse, but Gina wouldn’t let me. I make too much money for the record label, even with the shit that I’ve been releasing over the last ten years.”
“Why did you stop writing your own stuff?”
“I lost my muse,” he replied, shrugging. “When Steel Roses split, a lot of shit went down. Everything that I loved about songwriting died.”
“But you’re working on stuff now.” I felt the need to be positive around him. Too many people seemed to doubt him.
“I barely haveonesong, Straight Lace.” Running his hands through his hair, he began to pull on the ends. Without even thinking, I stood up and removed his hands from his hair before sinking down onto his lap. He wrapped his arms around my waist, gazing up at me.
“Do you know what made me become a fan of Steel Roses when I was younger?” He shook his head at me. “It wasn’t your incredible good looks, believe it or not. It was your lyrics. They are pure poetry. No matter what I was going through—a high school break up, losing a friend, doubting myself and who I could become—there was always a song that I could connect with. You gave me a way to escape. If everything got to be too much, your music was there to reassure me one day everything was going to be okay. There are a lot of songwriters out there, but none haveevergotten to me the way Steel Roses did. I know Matt did the music arrangements, but those lyrics, the things that meant the most to me…that was allyou,Alex. You need to have more faith in yourself. I’m not the only person who was affected this way, either. All your fans feel the same.” I couldn’t read his eyes as he gazed up at me. He was studying my face, letting my words sink in. “You can write this album. I know you can.”
“You have so much faith in me,” he cooed in awe, touching the side of my face. I tilted my head into his hand. “I’ve never met someone like you, Nat. In all my years…” He seemed to be struggling for words. “So, I helped you with a high school break up?” His eyes were playful as he changed the direction of the conversation.
“You helped me with a few.”
“How many hearts did you break in high school?”Mebreak hearts? I should be so lucky. It was always the other way around.
“None,” I smiled sadly. “I have this problem, you see…” He pleaded with his eyes for me to continue. “I can’t hold a man. All the ones I…I…love, I’m never enough for them.”
“I don’t believe that for a second. Nat, if I weren't such a fucked up individual, I’d keep you. I’d fucking hold you and never let go.” Closing my eyes, I drew in a long breath. I knew this about him. I’d told myself nothing good would come from having feelings for Alex, but I fell regardless. “You need to open up that heart of yours. Stop hiding and running.”
“Having your heart broken isn’t easy,” I mumbled, running my hand down his chest.
“I know, but you can’t be scared of it. Otherwise you’ll spend your whole life alone.” Where was all this wisdom coming from? We’d never talked like this before.
“Like you?” I questioned, tilting my head, worried that I’d gone too far.
