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I lean down and tenderly kiss her as I start to move inside her, so slowly. I want to take every possible second to drown in her, to completely let myself be enveloped in her essence.
Emotions stronger than anything I’ve let myself feel in forever course through me as I thrust deep, trying to be closer than is even possible with her. I’m euphoric with adoration and excitement, and I’m so fucking in love.
“Ben,” she gasps as I feel her tighten around me, her eyes squeezing shut.
“Shhh, Kasey,” I hold her chin fast in my hand, “just look at me; stay with me,” I plead with her as I pick up the pace, increasing the friction. I pump harder and faster until I feel the beginning tremors of both of us about to erupt. “Come with me,” I whisper before coming down to catch her cry in my mouth. She whimpers and moans around my tongue as I take us all the way up and over the peak and then careening down it together.
I can’t help groaning into her in kind, until our climax begins to ebb. I collapse on top of Kasey and stay hard inside her for several moments before gently pulling out of her and pulling her to me, wanting to lock her against me forever.
Chapter Thirty
Kasey
“Why do I have to jump?”I ask as I sit on the edge of the deck and hover over the big metal tub that is actually only big enough for two people to stand in.
“It’s better to drop your whole self in at once,” Trisha explains. “If you try to step in, you most likely won’t go through with it.”
“Oh,” I nod, sarcastically. “That makes me want to do this even more!”
How the hell did this day get here so fast?
“You don’t have to do this at all,” she reminds me. “This isn’t for everyone, and there’s absolutely no shame in changing your mind.”
“But you said it’s been doing wonders for you.”
“It has, but that doesn’t mean I judge or put pressure on anyone who doesn’t want to try it. It’s still really hard to do.”
“No,” I shake my head, “I need to face my fears and that has to start somewhere. How long do I have to stay in?”
“Three minutes is recommended. After that, it’s up to you. You decide how long to endure it.”
I look around at the other tubs in the facility. One woman doesn’t jump. She just climbs in and relaxes down in the water like she would a warm bath.
“Don’t worry,” Trisha says, following my gaze. “She started off just like you, and so did I. It will take time, but you’ll get there,” she adds, nodding in the woman’s direction.
I nod and let out a breath, trying to center myself, or… something. All I have to do is push off this deck and there’s no turning back. I’m in it. I take a few more deep breaths like Trisha coached me, breathing in for five seconds, holding it in for just as long, and then blowing it out.
“Wait! Hang on!”
I startle and jump as I look to the entrance of the room where Ben just came in. He hurries over to me while yanking his t-shirt off, leaving him in dark blue swim trunks. He climbs up the few steps of the deck and takes a seat beside me. We sit, both hovering over the ice tank of doom, looking at each other, me trying to figure out why he’s there; him, looking like he’s seeking my approval.
“You like to show up in the middle of things don’t you?” I tease, referring to Matt and Melanie’s wedding.
He grips the edge of the deck like I am and looks down before nodding.
“Yeah, I guess so.”
“What are you doing here?”
It’s a moment silence as he gathers his thoughts before he looks up at me.
“I guess I feel like I need to do this too.”
“This?” I ask, tilting my head at the glacier water below.
“Well, not this exactly,” he replies with an incredulous look. “But something to wake me the fuck up and pull me out of this damn rut I’ve been in; something that will shake me up and slap me around. I mean, Melanie would gladly do that, but I just can’t stand the idea of giving her that satisfaction.”
His face is totally serious, but I can’t help but laugh at his jab.
