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“Whatever.” He scoffs. Whether he’s my type doesn’t matter, because hecan’tbe.
“Oh, I’m sorry, did you want me to change my relationship status on Facebook?”
Is he mad?I’m trying to reassure him I’m okay with this.
“Nope, just making sure you know it’s only sex.” His voice is clipped and cold.
I swallow hard. It’s true. This is sex at face value. No strings. It’s Camden, he’s a terminal bachelor and not someone to tangle with when it comes to feelings. I will not let another man hurt me. I’ll learn to separate my feelings from what we do behind closed doors, because I need this friendship.
“You’re a fuckboy,” I say, patting his stomach where my arms are wrapped. “Lucky for me, that’s exactly what I need.”
He laughs. “So you’re using me? I should be offended by that.” He smacks the side of my thigh.
“We’re using each other. Just ’til I get my own place, then it’s done. I’ll be gone before you know it.”Will I?The hesitation I feel is all the more reason for me to move out. We will never be a thing, the more distance I have, the better.
He’s quiet for a while and clears his throat. “I’ve given that some thought... You should stay with me.”
I bark out a laugh. “And you’re tellingmenot to be clingy?”
“Hear me out, from a security standpoint, he’s going to find out where you are.”
“He’ll discover my location eventually, regardless of where I sleep. It’s only a matter of time. And I’ll get a VPN like you have. I can’t always be on the run.”
“Yeah, but once he finds out, I won’t be there to back you up.”
I smirk. “You sure this isn’t because you want to extend your time in my pants?”
He covers one of my arms with his. “This is serious, Jordan. You need to keep yourself safe. You want your freedom back, I get that, but at least be prepared. I know how these things progress. You said he’s been texting, but I would bet anything that in a week or so he stops messaging altogether. He’s going to make you think he’s gotten over it so you come out of hiding.”
“Fine, I’ll take some self-defense classes or something.”
“Stay until you know it’s safe. In the meantime, I’ve arranged for you to borrow a car, it’ll be delivered to the house tonight.”
I huff. “Thanks. I appreciate you setting up a temporary vehicle for me. However, when it comes to where I live, that choice is mine.”
He’s being too nice. If we continue living together, will I be able to maintain our emotional separation?
He sighs, and we ride in silence. We were having fun, but now Bryan is in the center of everything, and I’m letting Camden tell me what to do. I’m irritated with him, my ex, and myself. Am I being an idiot by sleeping with Cam, losing focus on what I need to do? I don’t regret the sex, but perhaps it was a mistake. I shouldn’t bring him into mychaos anyway. “On second thought, maybe we shouldn’t do this.”
“What?”
“Sleep together... God, this was supposed to be a fun ride. All you’re doing is reminding me I’m some fucking victim in hiding.”
He reaches back and squeezes my thigh, and it feels different after our night together. Too intimate.
“I’m just making you aware of the risks.”
“Yeah, out of one cage and into another,” I mutter. “Which is why having sex is a bad idea.”
He flips his blinker and pulls off the road.Why are we stopping?Cam gets off the bike and climbs back on, this time, facing me. He flips the visor on his helmet so I can see his eyes and wraps his palms above both knees, clutching me tight. I’m thankful he can’t see my flushed cheeks. “Is it a bad idea for me to touch you like this?”
“Yeah.”
“How do youfeelwhen I touch you?” He rubs my inner thighs, his fingers climbing higher and higher. My breath catches. “What’s going through your mind?”
I avert my gaze. “That we shouldn’t keep doing this.”
“I hate being lied to. So, this time when you answer, tell me the truth.What are you thinking?”
