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“Open those pretty eyes, Milla,” Nik growls. “Or I’m going to shove my cock so far down your throat, you’ll still be choking on it after you die.”
“You act likeIwasn’t some kind of game, too,” I snap, and his face changes, paling slightly. “You didn’t give a fuck about me this entire time. Just showing off your prize: me. You wanted to prove you could steal me from Leo and then you were going to drop me, so why the fuck didn’t you?”
“Because, believe it or not, Camilla, you’re embedded into the marrow of my bones. You’re so deep inside of me I can’t dig you out without taking a vital organ out along with you.”
I’m stunned to silence. “You said I was yours.” My lower lip trembles. “Except you’re just a liar.”
“And so are you, princess.” He chuckles. “Don’t play the victim.”
“I care about you, Nikolai,” I confess softly. “Even if I hate you.”
He’s taken aback, reeling away from me as if he’s been slapped. “You hate me? Because that’s not what it sounded like last night when your cunt was wrapped around my cock, milking me for all I’m fucking worth.” He pauses, his face pained. “Tell me why you’d let him kiss you after my lips were all over you last night?”
I don’t reply to that, instead I ask him, “Why did you kill my brother?”
Nikolai swiftly gets off me, falling to the side, and lying on the ground. He stares at the ceiling, clearly caught off guard. “You knew?” I nod at his question, unable to speak. The knot in my throat feels like it’s never going to untangle. “And you still let me fuck you?”
I gulp. “Leo told me to.”
Nik turns my way and stares me up and down, only this time I cover myself with the t-shirt. “So you just do whatever Leo tells you? Did anything between us mean shit to you?”
“Of course it did!” I sob, failing to tamp down the weak sound of my heart cracking again. “And I hate myself!”
“For what you did to me? Or for feeling something like I do?”
Feeling what? What does he feel?
“For wanting it.” I can’t control my feelings. For the first time in my life I finally understand why people say the heart wants what it wants. I’m living it right now. “For wanting you.”
That’s the worst part of it all, that I want it so bad it hurts. I want his body on mine, his lips, his tongue, his teeth, his cock. I want it all. Everything he has to give, and I’m afraid I also want his heart.
I turn to stare at him. His silence is deafening, his profile stony and devoid of emotion. His expressions are like Fort Knox, utterly impenetrable.
“Well, congrats, princess.” He looks away. “You played the player.”
I turn toward him and try to shift his face toward mine, but he won’t budge. “Let me see you,” I tell him. “I want all of you right now.”
When he turns his face my way, his eyes tell me everything I need to know. There’s sorrow, longing, regret. “You already have all of me,” he replies. “You’ve already taken it all.”
“So help me understand what happened, Nikolai. You…” I swallow the lump in my throat the size of Russia as tears burn my eyes. “You killed my baby brother.”
“I’m sorry, princess,” he whispers, tears now filling his own eyes. “I never meant to. It was never supposed to be him, it was meant to be Leonardo.”
“What happened? I need the truthnow.”
“They set us up,” Nikolai starts. “It was supposed to be me and Leonardo, but he brought everyone he trusts with him, including your brother.”
I’m quiet even through the pain in my heart, and hear him out.
“He shot at me, wanted to kill me.” His voice sounds miserable, although I don’t think it has anything to do with Leo. “But when I shot back, at the last second, he shoved Andrea in front of him to shield himself.”
My stomach drops, trying to understand what he just said,needingto process it. My lower lip trembles and I turn away from him, lying on my side and putting the stupid shirt over my head to try to muffle the sound of my cries. Sobs rack my body, making my shoulders shake.
The person I’m supposed to marry and spend the rest of my life with is the same one who used my brother as armor to keep himself alive. He deceived him and pulled his strings to death, literally. He has no remorse, walking around and blaming Nikolai. He didn’t even deny it just now when Nik said it, and that’s all I need to know he’s a fucking liar.
Leo has consistently defended his honor, and if someone said something untrue about him, he would fight it until his last breath. He either couldn’t defend himself or didn’t want to, knowing he was a liar and not wanting to dig a deeper grave.
“Talk to me, Camilla.”
