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I need to feel the pain. It doesn't matter how bad it is…the more, the better. I prefer not to mark up my legs again, but it gives me the much-needed pain that I seek. If he and I were truly alike, then he would understand.
He stops and grabs my chin, making me look at him. "Ryan…"
His words trail off, and I watch his chestnut eyes dart back and forth, assessing my own. I'm sure if he's looking hard enough, he will find what has me wanting this. He may possibly get a glimpse of the same need he has.
"Please…" My voice is pained and overflowing with emotion.
Bain pulls me into his embrace and holds me there. With my ear pressed against his warm, hard chest, I can hear his heart raging within. Why is that? Is he worried he will hurt me?
"Bain?"
"Yes," is his whispered response. "I'll teach you how to do it yourself, like how I do it, but not until you feel the true lick of the whip's kiss."
"Thank you." I wrap my arms around his waist and hug him before pulling away,
"Will you do it now?"
Nodding, he says, "There's no time like the present."
"Go stand over by the Saint Andrew's Cross and face it while I pick out the right one to use," Bain orders.
Excitement blazes through my body like wildfire as I hurry to do as I'm told. Opening my silk robe, I push it over my shoulders and let it float to the floor. It's not like Bain's never seen me naked before, and it is only my backside. He's a Dominant, for Christ's sake. However, this fact still doesn't calm my own heart down any.
"Jesus…" Bain's curse reaches me, and I glance over my shoulder to see him frozen in place, his eyes roving over my backside. "I wasn't expecting you to be…"
"Oh shit! I'm so sorry…I just assumed…" I squat down and scoop my robe back up, covering myself instantly.
"No, you're right." Bain scratches the back of his head. "Typically, you…I mean, the sub who I would be doing a scene with would be naked. I just thought I would start off while you were wearing your robe. Fuck… I'm sorry, Ryan."
"No, I'm sorry. I made you uncomfortable, and I didn't mean to. I thought that since you've already seen me naked, it wouldn't be an issue."
He sighs and stands before me. "I was punishing you during those times, Ryan. I wasn'tlooking at you."
"Oh, you were looking at me just now?" My brow furrows, not knowing what to say to this exactly.
"Yes…I mean, no…not like that. I turned and saw you naked…and it's been a while. You've grown up a lot since I last saw you like this. That's all…I was startled."
I want to chuckle at his word vomiting, but I don't dare. Tilting my head, I study him before asking something I've wondered about since Mom passed. "Are you seeing anyone, Bain?"
"No, I'm not ready. Your mother meant a lot to me, believe it or not."
"I understand. Will you be taking on a submissive, then? Will I need to be on the lookout for you walking anypets around in the house?" I grin, remembering how Beau told me he has been known to do this.
Bain chuckles. "No. I'm not into that, personally, but I will play the part if it's what the sub wants."
"You know, Mom asked me to keep an eye on you." I smirk. "She wants me to make sure all those greedy women keep their claws out of you because she doesn't trust them not to take advantage of you."
He laughs this time. "Oh, Lacey. She's still watching out for me…"
The room goes silent again, and it starts getting a little awkward. "Well, shall we?" I ask.
"Oh, yes, of course!" Bain rushes me closer to the cross. "I'm going to cuff you so you can't move too much. It can be dangerous if you turn a certain way while I wield an implement and strike you in the wrong area. Are you okay with that?"
I nod. I decide to drop my robe again after facing the cross, and I step up to it. The wait and anticipation is the worst part of all this. Once my limbs are secured, I feel Bain's breath on my neck as he steps up behind me.
"I'm going to redo your hair. Strands are hanging down, and I don't want them caught in the whip."
I nod.
