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“Devlin, you’re—”
“You didn’t tell me you wanted to bite Eleri.”
I drew back a bit. “Hey, you knew I wanted that, but I assumed it wasn’t something I was actually allowed to want.”
He considered this. “Okay.”
“Look, Devlin, whatever happened today—”
“I’ve never been normal,” he said.
I raised my eyebrows. “Maybe not, but everyone on earth wants to be you.”
He scoffed. “Maybe now that she’s in my life, but before that, I was just some defective alpha who couldn’t claim an omega.”
“You don’t really think you’re defective.” I knew he didn’t. He couldn’t be confident in the way he was confident if he thought that.
“No,” he said with a sigh. “Maybe not. But I can’t say it out loud, what I think about myself. It’s the cockiest, most fucked-up thing—”
“Say it,” I said, and maybe I pushed a little, with the part of me I was learning was my alpha.
His gaze jerked up to meet mine. “I guess I want to say it.”
“Say it.”
“I feel like I’m… not superior,” he said, shaking his head. “But destined for something unique and special and important. That sounds fucked up, right? I mean, it’s so arrogant.”
“I don’t know.” I shrugged. “I think you’re kind of amazing, you know?”
He licked his lips. “It’s just the evidence isn’t there. I feel like this is true about myself, and it’s something that pushes me, every single day, to try. I don’t even know what exactly it is that I’m trying for, but I know I need to try. And then, things like not being able to knot for an omega or something, things like fucking Sinclair cheating on me?”
“Is that what happened?”
He rolled his eyes. “Just… the evidence isn’t there. If you look at me, I’m nothing special. I’m just defective and uninspiring and—”
“Hey,” I said. “You’re not defective.”
“I thought maybe it was the pair bond,” he said with a little shrug. “They’re rare and special and unique. Maybe that’s why I always felt this thing, and then it turns out… no, that’s not actually true about me either.”
“Look, Devlin, you are unique and special.”
He snorted.
“You’re the heir to the throne. You’re an alpha prince. And you look criminally good in that tank top.”
He blushed, laughing a little. “Yeah, but that stuff… it doesn’t count.”
“I see,” I said.
He hung his head. “I didn’t do any of those things. They just happened to me.”
“The pair bond would have just happened, wouldn’t it?”
“Yeah,” he said. “I guess it would have.” He shrugged. “I’m just being stupid. I have no cause to whine about my life. I live this fucking charmed existence—”
“It’s been made apparent to me that being an alpha prince is harder than I might have thought it would be,” I said, thinking of Sinclair’s little speech earlier. “And if you’re hurting, Devlin, that doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with you. If you never felt any pain at all, you wouldn’t be a person.”
He sighed, his shoulders sagging. “Maybe. But I’m making too much of it.”
