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He watched me with pain in his eyes. Seeing him like this made me want to run away, but I decided to run into his arms instead.
“Please don’t shut me out again. I can’t live without you, Sly,” I sobbed, pressing the side of my face into his chest. I wrapped my arms around his waist, holding on to him tightly.
He wasn’t hugging me back at first, but when his arms finally came around me, my body relaxed immediately. I let out another sob, unable to control my emotions.
“Shhh, you’re okay. Please don’t cry,” he whispered against the top of my head.
He had changed. All this time he spent by himself and not talking to us made him change, but that didn’t mean he would finally let me get close to his heart.
Even if that had been my goal all my life, I didn’t feel like pushing him that far. Not when we were both this fragile.
We stayed there with our arms around each other for a long time, and when I finally calmed down, I turned my head to look up at him. I sniffed, trying to find the right words to say. “I couldn’t stay away any longer, Sly. I hated seeing you so…so broken.”
He looked down at me with gentle eyes. His expression had softened, which kept me calm. His hand moved from my lower back to my waist, then he lifted one hand and cupped the back of my head, sliding his fingers into my hair. “I needed time to think about what happened. I sometimes still can’t wrap my head around her being gone. She’s all I think about.”
I kept my eyes on him, and I was glad the jealousy I had worked so hard for to get rid of didn’t reappear after hearing his words.
“I know. She’s all I think about too.”
I studied him, trying to figure out how to keep this conversation going. I didn’t want to leave him. I wanted to be with him. Spend time with him.
I didn’t want him to feel alone anymore.
“It’s okay if you say no, but would you like to watch a movie with me?” I sounded desperate, but I was just hopeful.
“Okay.” He smiled, surprising me with his response.
“Okay?”
“Yeah. Let’s watch a movie.”
I reacted before he could change his mind. I grabbed his hands and pushed him into his room. “What movie do you want to watch?” I asked, walking over to the couch with him.
“You choose.”
It took me a minute to find a movie that wasn’t upsetting to us, and which would make out situation worse. I decided to go with a comedy we had both watched already, knowing it would make us feel good…and maybe even laugh.
I kept looking over at Sly, wanting to make sure he was okay. He seemed relaxed, but I knew deep down he was struggling.
I wanted to reach out and hold his hand, and I wanted to hold him. But I wasn’t brave enough to do that.
Sly could read my mind though. It was something he had always been good at, although I wasn’t sure he knew.
He turned his head and looked at me with a gentle expression, then he reached for my hand and pulled it into his lap. He locked his fingers with mine, then placed his other hand on top of mine. A smile tugged at my lips, and I let him hold my hand as we continued to watch the movie.
Minutes before the movie ended, a sob escaped him, and it made me turn my head to look at him. He was staring straight ahead, and when I looked closer, I noticed his teary eyes. His left hand lifted to his face, covering his eyes, and I immediately moved closer to give him a big hug.
I rested my forehead against the side of his head, with my arms resting around his neck. I didn’t know what to say to him to make him feel better. I didn’t think there was anything I could say anyway, so I stayed quiet and kept holding him as he cried silently, leaning against me.
With time, his emotions affected me, and I started crying too. He moved, pulling me onto his lap and wrapping his arms around my waist. I pressed my body against his while straddling his lap, and we both hid our faces in each other’s necks.
“You’re the closest I can be to her. Be my Wavel. Please.”
He was begging me for something I wasn’t sure I could give him. I had been his Wavel before, but it fucked with both our heads. If I could, I would make him be my Wavel too, but that wouldn’t work out, and he would never do it for me.
I couldn’t accept this.
Wavel was gone and she wasn’t coming back, and now he was asking something so big of me. He wanted to use me again, and I wasn’t sure my heart could take it.
