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"Yeah." I wiped a sudden trickle of moisture off my cheek. "I knew what he was like and I did it anyway. What was I thinking?" I threw up my hands. "I wasn't thinking."
Bec looked at me thoughtfully. "Sometimes not thinking things through leads to awesome things."
I snorted. "Says the woman who spent years planning your revenge on Hawk after he broke your heart in high school." Like a good best friend, I'd encouraged her every step of the way.
She smiled bigger. "Yeah, and look how that turned out."
"So what you're suggesting is that I now plot revenge against Bam?" I joked.
Bec laughed. "I hope you don't feel like that's something you need to do." She looked serious for a moment. "He didn't laugh in your face, did he?"
"No. If he had, he'd be singing in a really high voice from now on," I said dryly.
Bec snorted a laugh. "Lucky I didn't do that to Hawk. I'd be regretting it now if I damaged his package."
I made a face. "No offence, but I don't want to think about your boyfriend's man bits." Or any man bits. Ever again. They brought nothing but trouble for me and the man they were attached to.
"That's probably for the best," Bec said. "I don't share. Men or chocolate."
"You've shared chocolate with me before," I pointed out.
"Was I feeling unwell?" she retorted.
"Possibly. That would explain it." I managed a smile. She always made me feel better, even when I was at my lowest. She was a pretty awesome best friend. More than I probably deserved.
"Anyway, I said I'd work with him on this party of his." I sipped my coffee. It was good, but tasted like water after Bam's. Great, I was spoiled now, after one night and one cup.
My life was officially over.
"How do you feel about that?" Bec asked.
I sighed through my nose. "You know me, I'll do it because I said I would."
"I'm sure he'd understand if you don't," she said gently.
"It's not his fault," I argued. "It's mine for letting things go that far. It's not like he doesn't tell everyone he'll never settle down. He waved red flags in my face and I ignored every one of them."
"He is pretty cute," Bec said.
"Too cute for my own good, apparently," I said. "The problem is that somewhere deep down, I wanted it to happen. I mean, I actually thought we'd wake up this morning madly in love, or something."
I propped my elbow on the table and massaged my forehead with my fingertips. "Oh crap, I'm that woman." I groaned. "The kind who thinks she can change a man."
"You're not like that," Bec assured me in her best, firm tone. "There's nothing wrong with wanting someone to care about you. Between you and I, I think he's all talk."
I lowered my hands and frowned. "What do you mean?"
"I mean, he says he's going to be single for life, but I think he wants to find love as much as the rest of us. He's just scared to let his guard down. You might not be destined to be together, but you might. Either way, I think he's going to settle down some day." She gave me a sympathetic smile. "You've got it bad, don't you."
"Yes," I said miserably. "Is there a cure for this?"
"Chocolate?” she suggested. "Wine? Time?"
"I think time is all I have. After the party. Until then, I'll have to suck it up and keep my head on straight." I poked my muffin paper, looking for more chocolate.
Bec looked at me for a long while, then said, "You'd do it again, wouldn't you? Spend the night, I mean."
"Hell no," I said immediately. After a beat, I added, "Okay, maybe."
