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Knight had never been the kind of man to take things lying down.
He took what he wanted.
He gave what he wanted.
He left when he wanted.
And it never seemed to matter to him how his actions affected anyone else. Rook and I were both a testament to those facts.
And yet, he dared stare at me with so much passion and love and motherfucking forgiveness that it made my heart stop in my chest. Tears sparked my eyes and overflowed down my face.
Had he felt this way all along? This... love?
Had he been hiding it the whole time? He’d never shown this kind of open emotion to me before.
I shifted, my finger still on the trigger.
It shouldn't matter how he felt.
I was doing this for me. For Rook.
Knight's feelings on his death shouldn't matter.
And yet, I was frozen, my whole body strung tight. My back, legs, hands, and fingers ached.
I'd imagined this so many times, and every time it had gone so simply.
I would stare into his eyes, the goodbye on my lips as I snuffed out the light in his eyes. No hesitation. No regret.
But, my finger wouldn't move.
My arm was beginning to get shaky for holding my position so long.
My mouth was dry, my lips like the desert.
I licked them, tasting the salt from a tear, and could still feel the warm buzzing sensation where he'd brushed them away.
It had felt like he'd been brushing his fingers over my heart, my very soul, when he'd touched me.
I hated it.
Hated him.
Hated how he could still touch me with a gun shoved in his mouth.
I couldn't stand the look of love shining through his eyes.
Rook was right.
We should've killed him under different circumstances. But I'd been so angry when I'd seen that text on his phone, his heart, that I'd wanted to look into his eyes when I did it and watch as I obliterated him into nothingness.
I. Couldn’t. Move.
Maybe I needed him to suffer, to cut all ties with him first.
And so, I lowered the gun.
“No, Tatiana. Don't." For the first time tonight, Knight looked remorseful.
