AllFreeNovel
Share Us
“Oh, fuck… Yes.” I gasp as the violent orgasm rips through my body. I want so desperately to scream, but I can’t risk waking Kason in the other room. Suddenly, Payne tightens his hold and plunges his talented tongue inside of me.
Holy fuck!
Gripping the metal rail of my headboard, I arch my back and bite down hard into my bottom lip. The metallic flavor fills my mouth, blending with my saliva. I swallow the mouthful with sweet satisfaction. Before I can come down from the mind-blowing climax, Payne positions himself at my opening. With one savage thrust forward, he’s inside of me, filling my core deliciously with his blessed length.
“Fuck!” he groans, throwing back his head. Our initially slow lovemaking turns frenzied and wild. When our bodies sync in their thrusts, Payne lets out a satisfied groan, driving me more out of control. Unable to tame myself, I sink my nails into his sweat-coated skin and arch my body, back against the bed.
Out of nowhere, I feel it building again, deep and low. I can’t believe how quickly the orgasms are forming. I bite down onto his bottom lip and dig my long f
ingernails deep into his firm, tight ass, urging him to go faster... Harder. Deeper. His moans become my moans. Breathless and panting, he breaks our kiss and leans up to where he’s looking down on me.
“Don’t stop. Please.” I beg him, rotating my hips. I can’t bear for him to slow down, not when I’m just about to topple over the edge.
“Fuck!” he bites out, grinding hard into me. “I’m going to fill you up.”
“Oh. My…God. Payne!” I hold onto him, watching as he comes apart above me.
“So. Fucking. Good. Agh!” I feel his hot spurts of cum as he explodes inside of me. I rock my hips, milking him of every last ounce of his cum. Payne breathlessly collapses on top of me. I wrap my arms around him, scared of letting him go. The feel of his racing heart against my skin makes me tremble with excitement. I’m so addicted to him.
“How do you do this to me?” He asks as he tries to catch his breath.
“Do what?” I ask, barely able to respond.
Grinding his pelvis, he catches every sensitive crevice with the ridges of his cock. “I never want to stop.”
“Then don’t.” I’m so desperate for him to move, to fuck me.
Keeping his hard cock inside of me, he wraps his arms around my waist, rolling us to where I’m on top of him. I catch myself and brace my hands on the pillow beside of him, allowing my long hair to fall around his face. I sit up, settling my hands on his chest and look him directly in the eyes. Just as I start to slide down on his long, thick shaft, he thrusts his pelvis upwards, pushing himself deeper into me. I let out a loud gasp and throw my head back, savoring the feel of his cock as it presses deliciously against my cervix.
Back and forth, I eagerly grind my hips against him, unable to get enough of him. Our moans grow louder in the room as our hands curiously roam each other’s body. But then, we somehow settle into a deliciously slow rhythm; one that makes me want to cry from the sheer pleasure it brings. As I stare down into his hungry eyes, I realize that this isn’t just sex. There’s something undeniable between us, something that terrifies the hell out of me.
I think I’m falling in love with him.
We lay here, silently holding one another in the darkness of my bedroom. I don’t want to move. I don’t want to speak. If this isn’t real, then let me stay oblivious in this heaven. There was something very different about this time with him. I’ve never felt anything like this before. Even though our time together had been both aggressive and passionate, it’s the closest thing I’ve ever done to making love. In his arms, I feel safe and alive. I didn’t think that would ever be possible for me to feel with anyone. I’m too scared to admit it, but I think I’ve already fallen in love with Payne James.
“Tell me about Kason’s father.” His comment steals the very breath from my body. The very last thing I want to talk about is that. Ever.
“I don’t want to talk about him.”
Please don’t ruin this moment. Please.
“But I do.” I try to roll away from him, but he pulls me back against him.
“There’s nothing to say about him.” Reluctantly, he releases his hold on me. Sitting up, I turn my back to him and slip my t-shirt over my head.
“Is he still in the picture?” His questions are just too much for me, and I know it won’t be long before I break. Determined to try to quiet him, I change the subject.
“I’m going to go check on Kason.” I stand to walk to the door, hoping he gets the message that I’m done talking.
“I asked you a question.” He demands as his body covers mine from behind. His strong hand shuts the door in front of me. I spin and put my back to the door, unafraid to face him.
“Why can’t you just drop it? Why do you have to push me on everything?”
“Because, I have a right to know.”
“You don’t have a right to anything, Payne.”
He narrows his dark eyes at me.
“When it comes to you, I have every right.”
“Excuse me? My life is none of your fucking business.” I’m taken back by his audacity.
“Feel this?” He reaches down in between my legs and sinks his long fingers into my sex, coating them with the sweet mixture of our blended releases.
“This is my cum inside of you, marking you as mine.” He brings his wet fingertips up to my mouth and presses them to my lips. “Even when you want to defy me, your body always submits to me. So don’t you see? You are my business. You are mine.”
Yes, I am yours. All yours. Always.
“Stop it, Payne. Please.” I beg, feeling myself grow weaker and weaker by the moment. I have to stay strong. I can’t let him break me down this easy.
“You’re keeping a secret.”
“Don’t.” I close my eyes. “Please just drop it.”
“The other night... in your eyes, I saw it. I knew then that something happened to you, I know I’m right.”
“Stop.” My voice is so weak. Why won’t he stop this?
“Damn it, Honey. Tell me I’m not right.” Images of Broderick on top of me flash before me, filling me up with fury.
Damn him for this! Damn him for seeing what I never wanted to be seen!
“Right? You want to be fucking right?” Outraged by his boldness, I shove hard into his chest, but he doesn’t budge. “Which part do you want to be right about, Payne? The part where I was beaten and raped over and over, or the part where the son of a bitch knocked me up?” Through the flood of tears pouring down my face, I see the look of horror register in his eyes. It seems, I’ve finally rendered him completely speechless.
“Are you happy now? I’m dirty and ruined. Can’t you see that?” I cry, furiously hitting my fist into his chest. “Why did you have to push me on this? Why?” My voice now breaks into a shrieking cry.
Sliding down to the floor, I wrap my arms around my body, turning my head to the door in efforts to hide myself. I don’t want him to see me like this. He’ll never look at me the same.
Oh, God! Why did I tell him? Why?
“Honey?” I feel his arms embrace me, pulling me to him, but I hide my face into my hands.
“Look at me.” His voice is so soft and gentle, full of an overwhelming amount of tenderness.
“No. I don’t want to look at you. I don’t want to see the pity in your eyes.” I cry into his bare chest as he rocks me against his body. I don’t think I’ve ever let myself do this.
“Shh. I’m so sorry, baby.” Even through my sobs, I can feel the pain radiating from his body. Payne’s labored breathing and tense muscles shows me how much my confession had affected him. He pushes my tangled waves away from my face, holding my cheeks tightly with his hands as he places a kiss against my forehead. Fluttering my eyes open, I dare a look up at him.
“You have nothing to be ashamed about. Do you understand me? Nothing. When I look at you, all I see is survivor; someone strong and beautiful.” He wipes the tears away with his thumbs and presses his forehead to mine. “No one will ever hurt you again. I swear.” Payne pulls me back into his arms, the arms that make me feel so safe. God knows how much I want to believe him, but something tells me I’m far from being safe.
Chapter Twenty-Five
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
PAYNE
Her painful confession is like a violent slap across my face. Fuck! How had I been so blind, so wrong? Immediately, everything begins to make sense. The timing of her disappearance, to Kason’s birth, is just too coincidental.
Devyn cries into my chest until she’s too weak to move. Once I feel her breathing even out, I lift her into my arms and carry her back to her bed, quickly lying beside her trembling body. I pull her closer to me, clinging to her for dear life. No matter how tightly I hold her, I can’t get close enough. I want to crawl inside of her and take away all the pain. I want to wipe away all the horrific memories.
My infatuation with knowing the truth has done nothing but make matters worse for everyone. Our time together had been incredible, complet
ely life changing for me. I realize now that I’m falling for her…hard. What I feel for her and her son isn’t something I understand. My insides ache at the thought of walking away from them, but I’m terrified of what that means. This wasn’t supposed to happen. It simply can’t happen. No matter what I feel for her, I won’t burden anyone with the ghosts I carry around. No one deserves that, especially after what she’s suffered because of her painful past.
I don’t want to let her go, but I’m too overwhelmed by the images flashing through my mind. As I stand above her, watching her sleep, all I can think about is him touching her and beating her, of him robbing her of her innocence. Murderous rage fills my body unlike anything I’ve ever felt before.
