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He was a monster. He'd slept with her and disappeared. She must despise him. This was the reason he didn't get involved with messy, raw emotions with women. This was the reason he stayed away from relationships and kept things light.
Nothing was light with Ella.
The big red C+ reflected his growing understanding of literature. What began as a boring, torturous class had evolved into a foray of thoughts and words that affected him. He'd finished Jane Eyre, tore through Bronte, and actually went back to find more of their work. They were nearing the end of the semester, and as long as he passed the final and turned in his extra credit paper, he'd graduate with honors.
Finally, she dismissed the class and he took the familiar path to her desk. He waited his turn while she spoke to some other students, and then the room emptied.
"What can I do for you today, Mr. Dunkle?"
He winced. Yeah, she was pissed. And she had every right to be. "Ella, I'm so sorry."
She studied him coldly. "This isn't the time nor the place. My classroom is reserved for academic questions. Is there a question you want to ask me, Mr. Dunkle?"
He jerked back, reminding himself she was right. He didn't want to get her in trouble. "No, Professor. I'm sorry to interrupt."
He walked out and did the only thing possible.
Waited until she was done.
He tracked her to her car and appeared in front of her. "Ella?"
She jumped, her hand at her throat. "You scared me! Why are you stalking me?" She looked around nervously. "We're still on campus. You may not care, but I don't want to put my son or my job at risk."
"I understand. Open the car."
She glared, but finally pressed the button. They got in the car, and he turned toward her. "I'm sorry," he repeated.
"Another apology? You seem to be good at them. Unfortunately, I'm unsure of what you're apologizing for. Leaving me in the middle of the night? Staying away for three days? Avoiding Luke? Or having sex with me?"
He winced and pushed his fingers through his hair in frustration. "None of it. All of it. I screwed up bad. I panicked because I didn't know where this would leave us. You and Luke mean the world to me and I couldn't keep my hands off you the other night. You deserve to hate me. I hate myself."
His honesty must have hit the right chords because she let out a deep breath and met his gaze. "Look, I was confused, too, but I don't regret it." Vulnerability gleamed in her eyes. "Do you?"
"No."
She nodded. She seemed to struggle with her emotions. He waited for her to share her confusion and admit her feelings for him. Instead, she gave him a tight smile.
"Good. I don't want us to act weird or avoid each other. It was an amazing night, and we'll just move on. Deal?"
His gut lurched. Why did she seem so eager to forget how amazing they were together? She didn't even seem interested in talking about their relationship. The sex had been the best he ever experienced. The level of heat and hunger she exhibited and released in him was almost primitive. He'd never felt such a deep connection. But she was smiling like he was a stranger and she was trying to be polite.
Irritation tingled his nerve endings. "Yeah. Fine. Deal. How about I come over and see Luke tonight?"
"He actually has a sleepover tonight."
"On a school night?"
"Yes, I gave him special permission. He's working on a science project with his two friends and the mother called to see if they could stay. I like these two boys, and I've met with Cathy for coffee. I figured it was good for him, and he promised he'd FaceTime with me."
"That's great." He paused, his heart pounding ridiculously in his chest. "Maybe you want to go out to eat tonight? Talk a bit more?"
Her gaze dropped from his and she stuck the key in her ignition. "Thanks, but I can't."
"Why?"
She dragged in a breath. "I have a date tonight."
His head was suddenly taken over by a swarm of angry bees. "With the same guy?"
"No, a new guy. Kennedy felt this new man would be a great match, and we both ended up free this evening."
"Oh." She'd been crying his name as he thrust inside her and now she was going to dinner with another man. This was what he wanted, right? He'd been afraid she'd get too serious on him and ruin their friendship. Things were back on the right track.
Cliche.
"Great. Hope you have a good time." He reached for the door handle.
"Connor?"
"What?"
Her voice was whisper soft. "This is what you want, right? For us to move on with other people?"
Tension drew his body taut. His heart did a strange flip-flop, screaming for him to change the rules. Tell her he didn't want her to date anyone else. Admit he was scared but wanted to see where this could go.
"Yes. I think it's good for both of us."
She paused. "Okay."
"Have a good time tonight."
He left the car without another word, wondering why the hell he was so pissed off.
And what he could do about it.
That night, he watched from behind his curtains as she left on her date. Tonight, she wore silky black pants that clung to her magnificent ass, spiked heels, and a lacey black top that looked like it wasn't enough material to go out in public with.
He fumed and waited. Drank a beer and waited some more. Tried to do homework, watch television, or read a book.
And waited some more.
A few hours later, her car pulled up to the curb and she got out. He watched her head toward her apartment, then pause in front of his door. Connor held his breath, his palm pressed to the cool windowpane. She glanced over, as if sensing his presence. She turned, stopped, and closed her eyes as if in an inner battle with herself.
Come to me, he mentally urged. His body tensed, waiting for her next move. Waiting for her decision. Come to me, Ella.
Her lips parted and she mouthed a familiar curse word she loved but rarely uttered. Then headed toward him.
He met her halfway. Just opened the door, dragged her inside, and took her in his arms. She never hesitated, lifting her mouth for his kiss, the earthy, musky scent of her curling in his nostrils. He was ravenous, rock hard in seconds, and his brain repeated one word over and over again without pause.
Mine.
He possessed her mouth with all the pent-up arousal and frustration racing through his body. Without speaking, he lifted her and walked into his bedroom, laying her down on the navy blue comforter.
"I waited for you," he finally said. He took in the spill of her dark hair over his pillow, the rapid breath raising her breasts, the long lines of her legs spread open.
"I know," she said huskily.
"You are so damn beautiful."
She blinked, raised her arms, and he crawled on the bed. Clothes drifting off, he worshipped her, spreading her out, touching and tasting every precious inch of flesh. He buried his mouth between her legs and drank in her essence, his tongue swiping her hardened clit, gripping her writhing body and bringing her to orgasm while he drank in every spasm and demanded more, always more.
Fitting himself with a condom, he rolled and lifted her over him. She took him deep, rocking her hips to a wicked, eternal rhythm, her breasts spilling into his hands as he rubbed her tight nipples and let her set the pace.
When his orgasm came, the brutal pleasure shook him to the core, diving deep into places of his soul he never knew existed and giving it all over to her. He swallowed her screams as she shattered around him, and Connor held her tight afterward, knowing he may not be able to let her go again.
Chapter Thirteen
"A person can't have everything in this world; and it was a little unreasonable of her to expect it."--Kate Chopin, The Kiss
"I have to go."
A full moon hung ripe in the sky. She sat on the edge of the bed, looking out the slats of the blinds, realizing she couldn't do this anymore.
She had wanted to try. God, she wanted him tha
t badly. She'd gone on that date, made polite conversation, laughed at his jokes, allowed his touch on her elbow as he guided her to the car, and thought about Connor Dunkle. Her date promised to call and she agreed to go out with him again, and then she drove home and knocked on Connor's door.
He'd been waiting for her. Somehow, deep inside, she'd known. She wanted to convince herself she'd be able to engage in a hot affair with her next-door neighbor and her friend. She swore she'd be able to keep it light, realizing he was the type of man who didn't look for long term and liked his easygoing, uncommitted lifestyle.
