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“That’s blasphemy, almost," she says, putting her finger against my mouth. “You can’t say that.”

“What, kinky men don’t go to Disney?”

She gives me a look. "Really, Tyler? Are you trying to ruin my entire childhood’s memories?"

"No. But maybe I’m trying to ruin you."

She gasps at my words.

"Maybe I want to fuck up that pussy so badly that all you can think about is me and my cock all day and night."

Her jaw drops. "You what?"

I chuckle. "See, you are not ready for dirty Tyler."

She licks her lips. "I don’t even know what to say."

"And that’s why I’m not going to continue, Erica. Because when I’m saying those words to you and mean it, you’re going to know exactly what to do next."

Chapter Fifteen

Erica

"Suki. Do you think that I?—"

Suki holds her hand up and gives me a knowing look.

"What?" I say. "Why are you looking at me like that?"

"I just want to say one thing before you continue," Suki says. "Ask me a question only if you want a real answer."

"What does that mean? Of course, I want a real answer."

"Yeah, you say that now, but a lot of times people ask questions because they want someone to make them feel better about their decisions or their life. They don't actually want the truth. I want to know if you really want the truth."

"But you don't even know my question yet, Suki. Why would you?—"

"I just want to make it very clear that I'm going to be 100 percent honest with you. So if you're going to ask me something that you don't think you necessarily really want an answer to, don't ask. Because I've lost friends in the past for being too honest."

"I want you to be honest," I say. "I really do."

I let out a deep breath and run my fingers through my hair.

"I mean, obviously, I would love for you to tell me that everything’s in my head and that I’m just wonderful and nothing I think is crazy. But right now, I’m so confused by life in general that I need someone to shoot it to me straight. I mean, of course, Sabrina does, and I love her, but I just... sometimes feel like maybe she's still saying things kinder than she has to because she's trying to protect my heart."

"Well, I'm not going to try and protect your heart," Suki says with a wicked grin. "I'm not mean. I just... I wish I were one of those people who knew how to be sweet and kind. Okay, so why don't you tell me exactly what's going on?"

"I feel like I've been so obsessed with my podcast and meeting 'the one' that real life is passing me by."

"Yeah. I would definitely agree with that."

"Suki!"

"No. It's emphatically 100 percent. You've been so obsessed with meeting the one that you have given up sex with hot-ass men."

"I haven't given up sex with anyone," I say.

"Girl, you have given up wanton, passionate, unbridled sex with randos because you're waiting for the one. And while I think that's admirable, where's that going to get you? Also, I don't really think there's a 'one' for everyone. I wish there were, but after having gone through all the things I've gone through?—"