“You know what. You’re right. I’m not like those women. Because I’m not a supermodel. Because you fucked those women in youroh-so-nobletransactional and transparent way. But withme, you draw me in close and then push me away and act like I’m…I’m…not enough…and you’re an asshole for doing that to me.” My face was hot with anger and embarrassment. In any other circumstance, I would have apologized for calling someone an asshole. Actually, I would never have done that, but William brought out a side of me that was unknown before. When I was with him, all my feelings were supercharged, overheated. I lost my reason and composure. I let out a frustrated sigh as I twisted my body to shake William’s hands from my arms.
“I’m sorry.” William’s face looked hurt. “I’m sorry that I hurt you.”“I just don’t get it,” I said. “Why would you spend all that time with me over the Christmas holiday? Why would you kiss me on New Year’s Eve? Why would you walk me home from the library every night when I close? Why would you offer to bring me to my surprise party, then disappear during the party, only to now tell me thatyou can’t?” I turned my face away from him. “You can, William. You just don’t want to.” I started to leave but William caught my arm. I looked up at him.
His face had changed. Before I could storm off, William wrapped his arm around me. I felt his hand on my face, then the sudden press of his lips against mine. William kissed me hard, as if this was the explanation I needed, and I felt myself melt into him.
My hands spread across his muscular chest. William pulled his face away. His eyes dark and serious, he said with a low voice, “You’re wrong about me. This is different. I can’t be casual with you because every time I get to experience a new part of you, I want more. You’re all I think about. I am constantly thinking about ways to be near you, closer to you. It scares me because I’ve never felt this way.”
I gasped, at a loss for words. William’s eyes searched my face. He pulled me closer to him. He said softly, “And, I’m scared because I know if we go any further, there will be no turningback for me, but if that’s what you want, then I’m yours, even if it destroys me.”
I pressed into him and William responded. He kissed me again, hard and eager. Hearing William’s confession ignited something within me. The furtive longing I’d been harboring for him was now blazing inside of me.
William pulled away from our kiss. He pressed his forehead against mine. My heart was pounding. I felt his hands move from my waist to my ass, eagerly grabbing at me. “Tell me you want this,” William said in a low voice, almost a growl.
My heart was racing. I nodded, still stunned and breathless, but every part of me longed for more.
William shook his head no. “Tell me, Kit. Tell me you want me.”
“I want you, William.” As soon as his name escaped my lips, he lifted me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist, cupped his face in my hands, leaned forward, and kissed him. William carried me to his bed and gently sat me on the edge of the mattress. The bed was high enough off the ground that he stood between my legs, our hips perfectly aligned. He held me close to him as his hand slid across my jaw, and he leaned in for another kiss. A warm longing started deep in my belly and spread throughout my body. William moved from my lips to my earlobe, then made a trail along my neck. His large hands palmed my breast through my dress. I let out a jagged breath as I buckled into him. I could hear William breathe a gentle moan against me as he felt my body.
William sat back with a hungry expression on his face. With one quick motion, he ripped my dress open. I gasped, and a crooked smile crossed his lips. I let the sleeves of my dress fall off my shoulders, and it crumpled around my hips. William quickly wrapped his arms around me again. This time he unlatched the hook of my bra, pulled it off me, and dropped it to the floor.My skin tingled at his touch. I tugged at his shirt, and William quickly pulled it over his head.
Shadows from the fireplace danced across William’s muscular chest and abs. When our skin touched, I felt an electric sensation run across my whole body. A tingling that made me gasp softly.
William whispered into my ear, “You feel this, too. I know you do.”
William pulled back so he could look at my face. I nodded. He leaned forward and kissed me softly on the lips. Then he laid me down on the bed.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispered into my ear. His mouth moved across my cheek, to my neck, then across my collarbone. My body was eager to feel the pressure of his hard kiss again, but William’s touch became soft and exploratory. The dramatic contrast from the passionate hungry kiss before made me realize that William was in control. A current of pleasure hummed through my body, surging where he touched me. My back tensed longingly as his hands explored my exposed soft middle with a light sensual touch, gently progressing up. I ached to feel him. Finally, William firmly cupped my breast, and I felt the hot wet pressure of his mouth on their crests—at first softly, then rougher and more insistent. I moaned as the sensation of his touch intensified. My hips pressed against his as my back arched, pressing me further into his mouth. His teeth grazed my nipples.
I wrapped my legs around his waist, pulling him against me. I could feel his hard arousal through his pants.
One of his hands skated up my thigh and under my skirt. I heard his satisfied sigh when he found the soft, silky fabric of my panties wet with my longing. William hooked my panties in his thumb and pulled them down. I lifted my hips so they slid off me. William raised himself up and stood above me. I felt hisfingers gently stroking but not entering me. I careened under his teasing touch. He watched with a look of satisfaction as I twisted at every one of his light touches, but he never entered me.
Sensing that I was becoming desperate for a release, William knelt between my legs. My dress bunched around my waist obscured my view of him, but one of his hands pushed beneath me and grabbed my ass. The other hand gently pulled back my dress so that he had a clear view of all of me. His lips grazed my inner thighs. William touched and kissed every place except for where I needed him. I felt an earnest throbbing between my legs where I wanted him.
I called out his name, almost pleading. “William.”
“You’re so beautiful. More beautiful than I could have imagined,” William said, kissing me softly on my mound. I trembled with desire. I saw William adjust just enough so that he could watch my face, see my expression. Then he finally pulled me to the edge of the bed and against his mouth. Pleasure surged through my body as William used an intensifying combination of kissing, licking, and sucking. An almost unbearable vibration of pleasure rippled through my body. I grasped at the comforter on the bed. William’s hums and sighs resonated through my whole body, and I begged for more.
He started off with methodical and precise movements, but as I became more excited and more aroused, so did William. I could feel his fingers dig into my thighs as my cries excited him. My ragged breaths and moans told him I was close. Even though it felt unbelievable, my body tried to jerk away from the intense source of pleasure that was William. My hips rose off the bed as I neared climax, but William refused to let me move away from this release. Holding me by my waist, his hands tangled in my dress, William pinned me to the bed, to him, until I finally broke and climaxed. I gasped for air, my heart pounding.
My whole body was humming. I felt William hover above me, then I felt the bare skin of his chest against my breast. When he kissed me, I could taste myself on his lips. My hands traced down his muscular back. Then my fingers pushed past the waistband of his pants. I could feel the length of his arousal against me as we kissed.
“William, I want you. I need to feel you inside me,” I whispered in his ear. He let out a grunt and soft groan as I stroked his erection. “Do you have a condom?”
William didn’t waste any time. He pushed himself up off the bed and crossed the room. The lights from the bathroom spilled onto the floor as he rummaged around in his bathroom.
I got up off the bed and let my dress fall to the floor. My braid had gotten twisted, so I pulled my hair tie from the braid and let my hair fall loose across my shoulders and back. I felt a chill in the air as I waited for William.
I crossed the room and added a log to the fire to warm up the room. A smile spread across my face as I realized where I was and what had happened. My body was still singing from William’s touch, but I felt something new rising up inside of me, a feeling that I had never felt before.
“Kit.” I turned to see William. He had stepped out of the bathroom and was looking at me by the fire. “Your hair is down.”
“Oh,” I said, looking down at my hair that fell across my shoulders. “I guess it fell out of my braid.”
“I’ve never seen your hair down.” William’s voice was almost a whisper. “You look beautiful. Absolutely perfect.”
I stood up, in awe of his perfect form. William had shed his clothes, so his full erection was visible and impressive. He held up the foil-wrapped condom between his fingers. “I found one.”
