Page 113 of The Jaded Notes

“Okay, I think I’m up for trying this.” I sit, knowing I need to plan it now or I’ll change my mind. “Can we try something new tonight?”

“If that’s what you want.”

“It is, but you organize it.”

“Done.” He flashes me a wicked smile and pulls me back to his chest.

For the rest of the day into the evening, I’m almost giddy with anticipation even though a small part of me thinks I’ll run like I did the first time we tried Jaxon’s way.

I’ve been working on my new designs at my apartment to keep busy. There’s a knock on my door. I answer it after the person on the other side claims they have a delivery for me.

The gentleman hands me a large bouquet of red roses and a card. I laugh inside because the event is almost identical to the first time Jax did this, only the flowers were pink.

I shut the door and place the arrangement on the counter. I pull a black notecard out of the envelope with gold-typed writing.

Tonight you will be picked up and brought to Elite-Sinsations. Eat something light two hours before 7:30 and stay hydrated. Do not drink alcohol. My driver will be there at 7:00. See you soon, mon trésor.

I follow all his instructions and I’m taken to Elite-Sinsations right on time. As I’m coming out of the room where I took off my clothes, locked up my belongings, and put on a black silk robe that was left for me, Jax appears before me.

He’s wearing black bottoms and nothing more. “Are you ready to begin?”

“Jax, I’m more than?—”

“Livianna, the scene starts now. Try again.”

God, his dominance makes me breathless. “Yes, sir.”

“Better. Did you follow all the instructions I gave you?”

“Yes, sir.”

“That’s my good girl.” He takes my hand and leads me through an area I’ve never seen before.

The hallway is dark, illuminated only by the same lighting asbefore. We come to an open room. There’s a red sex couch, a St. Andrew’s Cross, a spanking chair, a bed with red silk sheets, and a bondage swing. All are placed in different areas around the room.

“Livianna, this is our space for the evening. We can stay as long as you like. Just know your limits.” Jax dips his chin before gazing around at the toys.

My heart thunders in my chest as I take in all that I can. There’s a lot more here than at first glance. I hope I can do this and we get to try them all out.

I lick my lips and swallow. Jax won’t need to focus on foreplay because I’m more than ready.

“Livianna, I need you to use your words. Don’t push beyond what you can handle. This is your first time doing this, and you don’t need to impress me.”

“Sir, I want to impress you.” I place my hands on his chiseled biceps. “I like to make you happy.”

A smile quirks at his lips, and he kisses my forehead. “I’m more than impressed by you and beyond happy. Now let’s start over there. I’m going to restrain you first. This part is nothing new, so relax and enjoy the process.”

“Yes, sir.” I slide off my robe and saunter naked to the area he pointed out to me.

He works around me as he secures the leather cuffs and hooks them to an iron panel above me. The restraints around my wrists feel like a familiar embrace now, soft against my skin but unyielding in their purpose.

Jax moves behind me with practiced precision, his fingers trailing up my spine as he checks each binding above my head.

“How do you feel,mon trésor?” His voice has an undercurrent of care beneath the dominance.

“Safe,” I whisper, and I mean it.

After all these months of exploring this side of ourselves together in tiny pieces, this being the first time we’ve gone this extreme, that’s always my first response. Safe.