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This line of thought helped me come up with a reasonable reply that didn’t make me seem like the asshole I was. “You can always celebrate with him later. I’ve never known when my birthday was.”
“If you don’t know when your birthday is, how do you know how old you are?”
I wasn’t ready to share that yet. Not because I was against her knowing, but because it would open the door for a conversation I wasn’t in the right mental space to have.
“I just do. I can tell you for sure that I’m twenty-six.”
There was a long pause, her turn trying to think of a reply. “I can only imagine what you were like at seventeen,” she finally said.
“I wasn’t someone you would have wanted to know.”
“Aside from you being a pubescent asshole, why not?” Her tone was genuinely curious.
Nyx and I had shared a lot of shit, but my murky past was an area we had yet to breach.
I could ignore her, bullshit my way into a new subject, or tell her a story that would help lead her to the truth.
What I couldn’t do was lie. She’d had enough of that, and our world was full of too many secrets already.
“Seventeen-year-old me thrived in a different type of darkness. It wasn’t like now, where I try real fucking hard to keep it contained. I tortured and killed daily, sometimes multiple times, just for the fuck of it. I met Gwen around this time.” I paused, seeing her lips twist from the corner of my eye.
Interesting.
Maybe Z was right about having an ‘ex’ talk, but that could come after she’d accepted that we were going to be together.
“So, there was this squirrel that used to come around our tent—”
“Your tent?”
she interrupted.
“After we got out of the subway, we lived out in the woods for awhile.”
“Aw—”
“Don’t do that sympathy shit, Nyx. And don’t interrupt me, you’ll ruin my flow.”
“Okay, so your girlfriend thought a squirrel was cute and?” She circled her finger in the air, indicating for me to continue. Fucking smartass.
“Anyway, there was this squirrel and I told her I’d catch it, just not why. She had been pissing me off; she always pissed me off, now that I think about it. But, I caught this squirrel after feeding it for a few days, gaining its trust.”
She sat up taller and angled her body more towards me, pulling one leg up onto the seat. I took a second to decide how explicit I should go with details.
“So I had this squirrel, but where Gwen thought it was cute, I saw something to kill. I disemboweled it in the center of her sleeping bag. Nice and slow, just to see how long it could live like that. It died after a few minutes; I watched it suffer until the end. The light kind of just vanished from its beady eyes.”
“And you did what with its body?”
I smiled to myself. Nyx didn’t miss a beat. “I left it there with the innards spread out. Z and I fried the rest of it up that night. I can still remember the look on her face when I forced her to lie on top of it as we….went to sleep.”
“You mean, as you fucked her? Satanas, Malik, you don’t have to dance around your sex life. I’m not that petty or naïve. You’re a gorgeous man with a giant cock; I know you have sex.”
She added the last part like it was an afterthought. For her to talk about my ego so much, she sure as hell knew how to inflate it. I’d never heard her comment on my looks before.
Of course, I knew she was attracted to me; a blind man could see that. Hearing what she thought still made me feel as if I were on top of a damn mountain
“So you think I’m gorgeous, and my dick is giant?”
She brought a hand to her forehead and laughed. “You would focus on that out of everything I just said. Issues much?”
