“I really wanted—I'm sor—” She got up and ran to her room. She shut the door behind her slowly, and then I heard her sob.
My heart dropped and I felt helpless. I hated that she still felt like she had to apologize to me. I wanted to go to her, to fix it, but I knew the only way to love her right now was to let her have the space she needed.
Chapter 34
Rae
The second I got intomy room, I crumpled to the floor and started sobbing. He probably hates me because I ran from him. No one would ever forgive someone after that.
I cried until my eyes hurt and it felt like there were no tears left.I picked myself up off the floor and walked to the bed. The bed I didn't sleep in last night because I was with him, feeling safe. The man who had never hurt me. For two nights now, he let me sleep next to him, with no strings attached. But yet, I ran from him just now. I wanted to be with him, but my stupid brain got in the way.
I reached for my phone I had left on the nightstand and saw a text notification.
Caleb: No pressure to come out at all. I put your bra and shirt right outside the door for you. If you want, I can put dinner on a plate for you and leave it there too. Or you can join me if you want. I waited for you, just in case.
He waited for me. I looked at the time on the phone which read 7:30 p.m. I remembered the timer on the stove went off at about 6:45.He must be really hungry since he waited for me to eat.I stood up from the bed and walked to the door, the blanket still wrapped around me. I reached out and picked up my clothes he'd set outside the door. They were folded so neatly.
I glanced towards the couch where I had left him. He was sitting on the couch reading a book. He turned the page and glanced up at me with a small smile, just long enough that our eyes met before looking back at the book. I walked back in the room and closed the door behind me while I got dressed.This man, this sweet man. He cares so much, and is being so patient with me, but I bet he won't try anything again for fear of me rejecting him.
As soon as I was dressed again, I took a deep breath and opened the bedroom door.
