“It’s not fair. It’s just not fair.” My breaths hitched, and I felt as if I was about to have a panic attack.
“Hey, Keera, breathe, beautiful,” Kyle took my hand and sat me at the bar. The other two hovered around me. Despite the shortage of my breath, I felt calmer that they surrounded me. Their strong, kind hands rubbed my arms, shoulders and neck. It didn’t feel weird. It didn’t feel weird at all that I had three men touching me, comforting me at the same time.
If it was anything, it was soothing. Blissful.
“Do you think we can make it work?” The question fell out of my mouth without thinking. “The four of us?”
They exchange deliberating glances before Zach opened his mouth. “What if we can’t?”
“Then I can’t choose. If I choose just one, it won’t be fair. There will always be these parts of me that want the other two.” I shook my head endlessly, wiping my eyes. “If you can’t work it out… I’ll have to walk away.” More tears fell into my lap. “I just don’t know how I can choose.”
I cried. Hard. Everything was ruined. The perfection I thought would make me happy made me more miserable than ever.
Not that I wasn’t grateful, because I was. This night was everything. These men were everything. But to have it all and lose it all at once hurt. Like hell.
“You already know I don’t mind trying this lifestyle. It’s rather intriguing.” Kyle continued to rub my arms.
I barely managed to hold Zach’s gaze, desperately waiting for him to speak.
After a long, nerve-racking pause, he blinked. “I don’t want to lose you. If my options are sharing you or not having you at all. I’ll fucking learn to share. But expect a lot of swearing. And punches.”
A laugh burst out of me through the tears. Treacherous hope finding its way back to my heart. I summoned what was left of my strength and switched my gaze to Brandon.
“I have one thing to say,” he said, and my heart thudded.Please don’t shatter me tonight. Please.
“I choose Keera.” He smiled.
My heart skipped a beat and then rocketed in my chest. My breaths, laughs and tears trembled all over me. I was sure I looked so ugly, blubbering and laughing like a maniac, yet their warm gazes and smiles were all on me as if I was the most beautiful person in the world.
“That leaves us with a very important question, though…” Kyle smirked at me.
My eyes widened, and then I lifted a finger to his mouth to hush him. “Nope. We’re not having this conversation today.”
Zach cocked a brow. “Why not?”
“Because I’m not losing it tonight.”
“Oh fuck me. Are you for real?”
“Yes. And no, I won’t…do that…tonight.”
“Virgin or not, you’re a Bio teacher! You know blue balls fucking hurts.”
Heat rose to my cheeks, and I bit my lip. “Okay…we can, you know, do other things to alleviate that?” I bit my lip again.
He snarled at me like a hungry animal. “For now.”
A grin twitched my lips. “I’ll take that.”
Brandon caressed my cheek. “Maybe if we use the hot tub, you’ll change your mind.”
“Shut up,” I giggled.
He shrugged, smiling back. “It was worth the shot.”
Tonight, I was the girl that would be envied for her red dress and her dates. For the way they looked at me. The way they pampered me.
The way they wanted me.
